[Rosie23]

Mania was how I was able to be social. It was the only time I had the confidence to go places and do things and I never was concerned about what anyone thought. I was active and happier.

I was also a pain the arse even to myself.

But now I have no motivation to do anything. I spend most of my time anxious and afraid. Truly depressed. I don't turn down invitations to do things with friends, but I do not completely enjoy myself either.

Seems like the up was fixed, but the down came back. I would rather have the up.

[shoez]

I sometimes have issues like this...and the can cycle like various times in just one day...and it gets so confusing and complicated.
Im sorry that your going through this, I wish I could do something to help.
But, I can only send some big virtual hugs, and say that I understand

*hugs*
Be easy on urself

[BuggsBunny]

Yes, the down is pretty hard. Getting yourself going is hard, and so is really enjoying yourself. But there should be a happy medium between the up and the down, if your meds can be tweaked a little more.

Meanwhile, I'm sorry you have to go thru this. I know how hard it is.

[Rosie23]

Thank you.

It's actually been worse since I started taking high blood pressure meds. The last thing I expected was for my mood to go so far down. I have been in tears almost every day since I started taking them.
Had them switched and it is a bit better, but not much. I go back for that this Friday but they said it shouldn't be doing this.

I have really strange reactions to meds that other people don't.

And my next visit to check on my lamictal isn't until the end of March. ugh.

I'll hang and try not to drive those around me crazy.

[blossom12]

Could you give the doc a call to discuss the meds instead of waiting til March?

I know what you mean about the up moods. I wish I could be (safely) hypomanic (and able to make good decisions) all the time. Flat, or worse, depressed, is just not ok.

[Rosie23]

Originally Posted by blossom12

Could you give the doc a call to discuss the meds instead of waiting til March?

I know what you mean about the up moods. I wish I could be (safely) hypomanic (and able to make good decisions) all the time. Flat, or worse, depressed, is just not ok.

She is so hard to get an appointment with. If you want to come in sooner you get put on a list and then if someone cancels they call everyone on the list and the first person that answers get the slot.
Honestly, she's O.K. to see for meds but I have tried to talk with her about things I am working through and she isn't interested.
I have told myself I should find a new one but I am so terrified of strangers that I don't do it.