[bexter]

I'm hoping this isn't some kind of violation of protocol, but I've started a blog dedicated to the ups (well, I'm currently waiting for those) and downs (hello!) of my particular alcohol-soaked subspecies of BPD, and I don't want to just shout into a void.

Link is in my sig. Feel free to drop by and comment, coherently or otherwise. (Warning: I'm long-winded!)

[Thomi]

Originally Posted by bexter

I'm hoping this isn't some kind of violation of protocol, but I've started a blog dedicated to the ups (well, I'm currently waiting for those) and downs (hello!) of my particular alcohol-soaked subspecies of BPD, and I don't want to just shout into a void.

Link is in my sig. Feel free to drop by and comment, coherently or otherwise. (Warning: I'm long-winded!)

I really enjoy your blog. You're writing is exceptional! Thank you for sharing.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by bexter

I'm hoping this isn't some kind of violation of protocol, but I've started a blog dedicated to the ups (well, I'm currently waiting for those) and downs (hello!) of my particular alcohol-soaked subspecies of BPD, and I don't want to just shout into a void.

Link is in my sig. Feel free to drop by and comment, coherently or otherwise. (Warning: I'm long-winded!)

hi bexter. I just read bits of your blog here and there. I can empathize with it. However, at the moment I'm having a bad day or two and had to have my pdoc call me. I was not thinking and could not think what any next move must be. For now, I'm taking trazadone early and all my other meds and hoping. I managed to have a good trick or treat tonight with my kids andn boyfriend. Now I am listening to soothing music. Do you like music? choirs? Lots of times this music soothes me like now, but others, like yesterdsay I was hypo manic and it didn't help a bit. I will read more of your blog in time, but now I don't think I can digest it emotinally. Thank you for posting here!

[bexter]

Thomi: Thanks , I try.

Moose72: yeah, I realize that there is something of a Catch-22 inherent in reading the psychological data dumps of others with similar conditions--the more you empathize with what someone is writing, the greater the possibility that you might come away feeling worse rather than better.

I started this blog at a point at which I felt like I was looking up several levels at absolute *****. Writing is something I do professionally, but it is also one of the few reliable outlets I have for the sort of angst that otherwise compels me to do really terrible things to myself. So I figured I'd get the thing going and try to draw some visitors for the sake of maybe getting some feedback, or even just so that I didn't feel as if I were talking to myself. But my hope is that one day I'll reach a station of something resembling contentment, recovery, or what have you, and people (including me) will be able to look back on the early, possibly too-honest dreary postings and recognize that things really can improve.

Of course, I'm not quite there myself yet, as you can see.

Oh, and I do listen to music, but not choral-style.

Thanks for the comments.