[moremi]

Its horrible and enlightning wonderful and exciting, its my bipolar ride
Im on a menal rollercoaster that you can call my life
Last week so sad and lonely, nothing could ease the pain
Now Im spending cash, thinking fast I cant jump off this train
'Im feeling so much passion that its seeping from all my pores
The sun is bright, I love this light, things are prettier than before
What a beautiful place God gave us wish everyone could see
Wish they could feel the magic that my mind creates for me
I talk so much, no one keeps up, but for me its all so clear
All these ideas, epiphanies and I feel like God is near
I know hes always with me but now I feel him all around
Like hes marveling in his creation, I know that he is proud
I love my manic mind but I hate the inevitable end
For I assure you this disease is not always my best friend
For now I'll soak up the sun, have some fun before I run out of gas
Enjoy myself while i can because all this too will pass

[lynn P.]

Thank you for sharing how it feels to be manic. My brother(deceased now) was bipolar and it was never boring when he was like this - I have some funny memories. When I read your post I thought of this commercial and I wish you well:

[moremi]

Originally Posted by moremi

Its horrible and enlightning wonderful and exciting, its my bipolar ride
Im on a menal rollercoaster that you can call my life
Last week so sad and lonely, nothing could ease the pain
Now Im spending cash, thinking fast I cant jump off this train
'Im feeling so much passion that its seeping from all my pores
The sun is bright, I love this light, things are prettier than before
What a beautiful place God gave us wish everyone could see
Wish they could feel the magic that my mind creates for me
I talk so much, no one keeps up, but for me its all so clear
All these ideas, epiphanies and I feel like God is near
I know hes always with me but now I feel him all around
Like hes marveling in his creation, I know that he is proud
I love my manic mind but I hate the inevitable end
For I assure you this disease is not always my best friend
For now I'll soak up the sun, have some fun before I run out of gas
Enjoy myself while i can because all this too will pass

Oh thank you. I also wrote one when I was depressed last week. I didnt want to post it because I am afraid I may trigger someone else. It seems when I am really low or high I get a knack for writing poetry and I write them in like 2-3 minutes. I could make them better but I usually just get it out and move on.

[doitell]

That is crazy because that is almost exactly how I feel! well best of luck, lots of people are like this believe it or not I just relized that

[Tsunamisurfer]

Crystal, you're a honey. Thanks so much for sharing your experience.
Hold on to wisdom and keep from hurting yourself.
It's wonderful when you can appreciate life as you are now.

Pete

[BlackPup]

You certainly paint a familiar picture with your words.... thanks for putting into words what I can't express
Wishing you a soft landing.... Hope you are ok....

[moremi]

You are all great. Thank you. Im hoping for a soft landing myself. I actually got 5 hours of broken sleep last night. I think argv had a great idea about not thinking about sleeping. I actually litterally tried counting sheep. Picturing them jumping over me in my mind. Hopefully this sleep will help.

I hope the sleep helps, I got about 4 broken hours last night!!! My eyes are no longer glassy and red.

Thanks fir posting this. Mania has to be the hardest thing to explain to someone. Everytime I've tried they just look confused. I've only had dysphoric mania for the last oh 6 years. I really miss the pure mania, now I just feel scared of becoming manic.

I tried counting sheep too haha. Yup the more you worry about sleep the more anxious about it you get making it near immposable to sleep.