[widgets]

Hi everyone...

I hope your all ok..

I'm sad right now, i'm not depressed, (i dont think) what do you guys think? I know there is a difference, but i'm not sure what it is.
Like people without MI/MH problems feel sadness right? I think i'm feeling that type of sad.

The guy i live with moved out yesterday, he come back to collect the rest of his things and we went to the gym, and said goodbye and he said to keep in touch. I've only known him 2 months, but its been quite intense, as we've been living together.
Not only that, but as i've said before, i'm living in a city i dont know, away from my friends and family, i dont drive. i've recently been promoted at work, so i've got pressure going on there.

I havent really been coping, was in hospital, sometime in February.

But anyway, right now i just feel sad.

I called my friend, i was crying and i just let him talk to me, eventually i stopped crying and actually started laughing.

With the guy moving out, and the fact i am BPD, i have a fear of being abandoned, but i know i rationalised it all well, i had a few thoughts of what i could do to keep him here, but i didnt think i would put them into action. I spent last night internalising it and hating myself, but today, i'm just glad i met him and feel like i can trust the fact we are REAL friends, and he isnt just happy to be away from me . SO all things considered i'm coping ok.

But i just feel so sad. No motivation. No drive. i'm tired and lethargic and have been eating way too much, i did nothing at all over the weekend which is unlike me, no matter what mood i'm in.

anyways, just an update cause i wanted to talk to someone and a few people have asked how i was.

[BuggsBunny]

Yes, you sound sad, and have a good reason to be. So I'd say you are probably right in that it's not depression. I'm sorry your friend had to move, tho. It sounds like you were happy together.

[roads]

How terrific to hear from you! Yep, I'd say a "few" of us always wonder about how you are & hope to hear soon

Re: your friend moving out ...

widgets:

I spent last night internalising it and hating myself, but today, i'm just glad i met him and feel like i can trust the fact we are REAL friends, and he isnt just happy to be away from me

BuggsBunny:

Yes, you sound sad, and have a good reason to be. So I'd say you are probably right in that it's not depression.

You sound good, widgets--as if you're able to take the immediate feelings from an experience & reprocess them into something closer to a take-away fact. Is this a new skill? It's great self-care, and it's amazing to see. I would think it would help you be able to feel a healthy ,appropriate emotion like sadness rather than have the event simply feed your depression--something it would have done in the past.

Whatever work did you do between that time last night of "internalising it and hating myself" & today? You've accomplished no small miracle, you know that--right?

Roadie