Very gOod day but....

Do you ever feel weird anxiety? Like a color is wrong or you can't have a color because it will make you feel anxiety? Little tiny things about something just bother you and you have to get away from it? It doesn't have to be the color but that's one that came to mind.

I get anxiety daily sometimes its a noise , music or nothing in particular.
Even tho I have Xanax for anxiety,, it sure doesnt seem to help..

Most days I feel like a cat with a long tail in a crowded room full of rocking chairs....

So you think the anxiety comes first? I feel like stuff is more out of order and it makes me anxious.

Ok... I can relate to this. It's like when I was getting dressed the other morning and dropped two socks out of my dresser. I picked them up and stood there holding them. they were identical, not one wore more than the other or anything. I could not choose between them because I was convinced that one was "right" and one was "wrong"! I thought, depending on which one i chose, would choose the course of my day! My poor wife must have thought I was crazy, stressing about which one to choose. It did lead to anxiety, and there is still a part of me that is convinced that choosing the "other" one would have changed things. I can totally see doing this with colors too. I do this with a lot of things.

There are times I suffer anxieties right out of the blue for seemingly no reason at all. In the past I tried associating them with my activities but I'm thinking that the anxieties just occur without any specific triggers.

I also find that these anxieties can happen during either a manic episode or a depressed episode. And I guess it would be safe to assume some normal situations may cause anxieties such as your first day at a new job going on a date or what have you.

And yes my anxieties always overwhelm me with the need to flee. A social disorder which has even cost me jobs.

i HATE ANXIETY!!!

When one of my nephews was young, his mother had to tell him which was the right sock and the left sock before he would put them on.

This really stood out to me. I used to put things on the table at a restaurant in exacty the right spots. Sometimes I do feel better if I choose one thing over another- everything will be better. I wondered if it was OCD and I did ask my pdoc about counting tiles in public bathroom and she asked if I could leave before I'd finished and I said yes - she dropped the subject of OCD.

I've been this way for as long as I can remember.

For me... insecurity. massive insecurity. no OCD.