Went really well!!! was a little weird at first, but once I realized the psych nurse was ... Well he was pretty drunk. He definitely recognized me but he was nice to me and didn't mention a thing and I don't think he will.

I did drink and I don't think I've drank that much in years. But I did have a blast!!! The friends who's house I was at built a dance room above the garage. I got to catch up with my yoga buddy and I had such a nice time. Maybe that's just what I needed, it was so nice to have people talk to me and seem happy that I was there. Enough so that I'm not even feeling depressed now. I'm so anti social most of the time that I feel like people don't even notice me. Maybe I need to work on getting out more. The people there were like " it's been almost two years since you came out!" mm really, yeah that's a while

One good thing that I've talked about here before is always feeling like an imposter, or from the wrong side of the tracks. The people at this gathering are all very very well off. So I really tried to challenge those thoughts and I even felt like I fit in. I'm glad I went and I'm glad I challenged myself a bit.

Now I'm going to enjoy a nice mothers day with the kids. We are going to the falls just outside of town. The sun is even shining . I'll get to see my mother-inlaw too, which is always a good time.

Is it mothers day anywhere else in the world today? If so, and even if not happy mothers day to all the mothers here! Xox

Thank you to everyone who listened to me and was supportive, that really helps me so much~ you just don't know how much! And I'm grateful. I hope this happiness right now lasts for a while at least and maybe the depression stays away for a bit. Hoping it isn't a false happiness.

[Secretum]

I'm so proud that you went and I'm glad that you had a good time. I don't think I would have been brave enough to go, so kudos to you! I hope the depression stays far, far away for a long, long time.

[BuggsBunny]

Yes it's Mother's Day here in the United States, too. Happy Mother's Day!!

[Confusedinomicon]

Happy Mother's day! I am so glad you had fun. You're amazing because you continue to take yourself out of your comfort zone and challenge yourself. <333

[Trippin2.0]

So glad you had a great time, and so proud you challenged yourself like that and thank you, it's mothers day in RSA too, so happy mothers day to you too Anika!!!

[irishgirliexo]

I'm glad everything went well for you! Enjoy your Mother's Day!

[Seaswept]

I'm so glad you pushed through your fears and went to the party and had a great time!!!
I think its true what they say 90% of the things we worry about never come true. Good for you!

Thanks guys, really nice encouragement ... That's what's keeps helping me push past stuff, the encouragement I get here.

So feeling rather depressed again. That didn't last very long. I'm sure I was still slightly intoxicated this morning as I never drink and am a total light weight. But I don't drink because it makes me super depressed after and I feel emense guilt after I drink. It's always been like that. The guilt is a bit overwhelming. So I don't know that that was a wise decision now.

I did have a good mothers day. We went for a 6 mile hike to some waterfalls. Hiking and being extremely hungover wasn't so great, good reminder why I don't drink. I hope you all had a good mothers day as well. Xox