[faerie_moon_x]

So, I think I'm coming up from the depressed state into a more manic state. I'm so mixed up I am never just one or the other, but usually one is worse than the other. I don't even know if I'm ever normal any more ever. But, I can tell when I'm more one than the other... (and I've been trackign it to figure it out.)

Anyway, today for example my brain just wants me to talk. But I have no one to talk to really. So I feel frustrated by this. I know it means I'm more manic. I can't focus but I just want to talk non-stop... But I don't even know about what because i have so many ideas. If I could write this would be perfect. i could write and then all this talking would be good use.

[ChaoticSymphony]

I was like this last night and I ended up punching a door out of frustration. Everything is intensified when I feel like this. Quiet is deafening. Loud is screaming. Alone is lonely. walking is too slow. Driving is too fast. LOL you get the picture. I go for walks and count my foot steps when I am like that, I know it is useless to do it but at least I am doing something.

[grlnmt66]

I so know what you mean! I live alone..so what helps me when I feel that way is to txt...email and post (here) A LOT. Also, the type of job I have Im talking on a phone all day long so that helps, too.

[3little.birds]

Are you all alone? I'd blast fun music and just sing on top of your lungs while cleaning or something distract yourself in a fun way hehe.. I understand what you mean though, if you want someone to chat with though feel free to send a PM I'm a good listener

[faerie_moon_x]

I am at work. So not blasting music for me. I text and text and post. LOL. I don't really have anyone to e-mail. If I was braver I would use my twitter more but the people who follow me I don't know very well and I don't want to annoy them. Now, if I was famous I would use it all the the time. LOL

[LadyShadow]

Hey dark heart pssst you could email me! I don't mind being ranted.....talk talk and type everything you're thinking. My inbox is open for ya!

[cocoabeans]

I used to talk to myself, then I got a cat so I seem a bit less crazy

[grlnmt66]

cocoabeans~ LOL! I have a cat, too...I talk to her all the time...(sometimes more often than others, lol) I think outloud CONTINUOUSLY...at the store...work..driving in my car. At times it makes life more interesting especially when someone says "What were u saying and I reply "Oh nothin' Im talking to myself, lol!

[BipolaRNurse]

You mean not everybody does that??

[faerie_moon_x]

I talk to myself so much I've actually been accused of talking to someone else. But I talk as two people. Me and other me. So I talk and then respond. I think that's normal... right?

[grlnmt66]

I guess its "normal"...for me anyway, lol. The only indicator that Ive had that it isnt "normal" is other ppls reactions, at times. Oh well...I gotta be ME!

I think it is, if not we are all in trouble! I know what you mean tho, when I get all chatty and really really want to talk there is usually no one to talk to. And it does get frustrating. Type talking helps a bit, but for me it isn't quite the same as usuing my vocal chords that are begging to be exercised.

I used to talk to my kids a lot, but I swear they are at that age where when I open my mouth they leave the room. I talk to my bf non stop when in the mood, but he can't keep up, and I think I bring on migraines for him sometimes :/. My sisters are good tho, they love to talk and they love to listen.

And yup, like others said, you can talk to me anytime, I enjoy your company here!!

[faerie_moon_x]

You know who is the best person to talk to? My baby! He is very social. He likes to talk and sing. He doesn't care what I'm talking to him about, or if I burst into song, or if I have to make up words because I can't remember the real ones. And he doesn't mind if I use funny voices or just babble at him in nonsense! He just smiles and laughs and pays really close attention until he gets fussy. LOL

I wish I had a sister to talk to. That would be great. I hate being an only child.

Yes babies are great company, ohhh I love babies. Hold on to these moments while they last.

Aww, that makes me sad that you don't have a sibling. Although, being an only child leads to less fighting. I have a very small family, just my two sisters, and my mom, and step father. No aunts, uncles, grandparents or cousins. It's easy to keep track of everyone, but at the same time it's a little weird too. I'm glad I have my sisters because when my mom passes I would have no one.

Do you have any cousins that are close?