[ChristySpirals]

Before being diagnosed I was positive I have bipolar, fit the bill to a T in most aspects. I was diagnosed bpd before that and after coming to this forum I think that I don't fit in with that group. I don't freak out when left alone by my hubby, there are no frantic efforts to avoid his absence or anyone else for that matter. I get lonely of course at times but its not so unbearable that I can't function or that I dwell on it.

Well I'm doing it again with bipolar, I had to go off meds for 3 days (this being the 3rd) and I feel fine, I feel like a normal person. Emotions aren't high, level headed, still get pretty angry at times I guess. So I don't think I have bipolar.

Do psychiatrists just give premature diagnoses to push pills? I am supposed to start seroquel again tomorrow but I don't know if that is a good idea. My pdoc said to start it again even after I said I feel awesome (not hypo awesome). I don't understand why he would say continue an antipsychotic when I feel great?? Wouldn't he rather see if this lasts instead of just pushing pills? Maybe I am out to lunch on this one but it just doesn't make sense.

[faerie_moon_x]

Here's the thing, I work in healthcare and if you're with a doctor of any kind that diagnosis you just to push pills, you need to find a new doctor.

There is a truth about mental illness that does happen. And with bipolar it does happen, too. Bipolar is not really bipolar. It's more like tripolar. You have depression. You have mania. Then you have a 3rd leg on that table: stable or "normal." You're not depressed. You're not manic. You feel fine. Then one day the freight train comes rolling back into town. There are lots of stories of peopel saying, "I was better so I stopped the meds."

But, you have rights as a patient to make decisions in your own healthcare. If you want to wait and see if it lasts, then tell him. If he fires you for non-compliance, (just because you won't work with you,) then find a different doc.