[Miss Laura]

Hey guys,

I saw my CPN- Community Psychiatric Nurse this afternoon. He had a student nurse in with him too which is fine by me as how else can they learn.

We were talking and he says I seem to be doing much better which is true. He saw me twice in May as I was depressed even suicidal. Now I am hitting "normal" and mild mania which is fine.

He dropped a bomb on me, my Psychiatrist is leaving in September. He is going to anohter city to be a GP. I have been seeing him for just over 2 years. I am a bit scared to tell you the truth. Is it ok to be like this? I have never been in this situation before.

Then my CPN told me that his manager has said since he see's me monthly this means I am doing fine and that he is possibly going to be taking a back step..... this scares me as I have been seeing him for nearly 18 months and my sessions with him are similar to counselling/therapy. I just don't know what to do. I admit I am a millions time better than I was when we first started working together. I know this sounds stupid but I am not ready to fly solo yet.

Really unsure what to think at the moment!

[Trippin2.0]

It's perfectly normal and you won't be solo, you'll just be trading your training wheels in for a safety net. Glad you're doing much better my friend

[faerie_moon_x]

It's good you're doing better!

Change is always scary. My psychologist retired and now I can't go see her. She was there when I was first diagnosed. I've been looking for a new psychologist and might be going to a Psychiatric Nurse instead. I just don't like the ones I've talk to on the phone. I am very much a believer in finding the right provider, but I'm sure I'll find the one.

You are going to do fine. Just take it easy and know you're doing better. Use the strategies you've learned, and ask for a referral to a new pdoc from your current one. That's a good place to start.

[Miss Laura]

Thank you guys!

In the UK you are automatically given another Psychiatrist. Which is good. We don't need to look for Psychiatrists or CPN's they are provided by our health system called The NHS aka The National Health System. I know we are lucky in this respect. I just worry cause he was the one who diagnosised me. I know it is a good thing deep down. Its just maybe my mind hitting paranoia about only maybe seeing him one last time on 25th June. I do not like change and I find "goodbyes" really hard. Auch maybe I am just being a bit weird at the moment lol!

[faerie_moon_x]

You're not weird. It's completely normal to be upset to lose someone, especially a trsuted healthcare person who has been your guide through a hard time.

[Miss Laura]

Thanks Dark Heart X.

I had looked through my old paperwork from work the other day and was in tears...... Always happens when I think back to my old life. I hate the thought of people leaving me and the "what if's" but I know somewhere in my head and heart that this is part of life and its a must to survive in this world

[hamster-bamster]

In UK, can you request your records from him?

[Miss Laura]

Hey Hemster-Bamster, I could but there would be no point as I will be in the same centre if not the same room as my Psych is now. Nothing really is changing bar he won't be there and I will get someone new. CPN from what I am thinking will probably in and out of my life? He will always be kicking around if needs be. I think anyways!