Break up after 4yrs

I broke up with my boyfriend of 4yrs 3days ago, we've lived together for 3 years so every where i look in my house i see him, i know i made the right decision but the pain that i feel in my heart is so intense and so heavy. sometimes i just start sobbing and i cant stop. and last night i had a panic attack because of all this stress and pain. I feel so alone, i've had to deal with intense pain many times before but this kind of pain is something i dont know how to get through. someone please help!?

Do you have any girlfriends you can spend your free time with? You need to be distracted. And then learn to love life on your own again.
I personally find that us BP people feel that much more. I told my T the other day that if I were to break up with my bf of 7 years, they'd have to hospitalise me because I have no idea how to handle those emotions.
If you feel you did the right thing - well done. I know it couldn't have been easy

I'm glad you feel you did the right thing. Hold on to that and, while you shouldn't forget the good times in your relationship, you shouldn't forget either that it was ended for a good reason.

I second what sugahorse said. You need to be distracted. Try and go out and do as much as possible with other people (though also try not to drink, and especially not to get drunk). Work through your emotions slowly, but try and see a light at the end of the tunnel.

It'll take a lot of time, but this pain will pass, I promise. Stay safe.

THANKS SO MUCH sugahorse and switch, it was a bright like to hear from you guys, I think you guys are right i do need to be distracted so im going on vacation for the weekend with my mom. but the only friend i have is on vacation so i dont have a lot of poeple to talk to, but i'm seeing my T on the 20th so thats good. It's just i've built a life with someone for 4yrs and now hes gone and i dont know what to do with myself, i feel lost and empty, i just keep reminding myself that eventually some good will come out of this, but untill then i'm in the dark

THANKS SO MUCH sugahorse and switch! your replys were a bright light for me. its nice to know there are people out there who understand what i'm feeling. i know you guys are right i do need to be distracted so im going on vacation for the weekend with my mom it will be nice to get away, its so sad and lonley being in my house since my boyfriend is gone, i wont drink on vacation though ive been sober for 5yrs so all that stuff is behind me,but i only have 1 friend and shes on vacation so i dont really have a lot of poeple to talk to. its just i've built a life with someone for 4yrs and now hes gone i just dont know what to do with myself. i know that eventually good things will come out of this but untill then i'm in the dark.