[BNLsMOM]

Gradually over the last week, I have big dreams again and I want to do stuff. My husband keeps telling me to not take on too much. The biggest thing I am taking on is making plans and taking continuing ed credits for my real estate license so I can go back to work.

I have also started dreaming again of a retirement home in Key West (not to happen for 20 years).

I have been eating healthy for the last two weeks and plan to get back into regular workouts soon. I have been going to my parents' pool nearly every day and making sure I am moving for the entire time we are there.

In the fall I plan to get to the gym 6 days a week and get my kids to their activities. I want to get back into yoga and fencing. The Olympics make me miss Fencing. In college, I was ranked 4th in New England one year, and the captain of the epee team for about a year. I fenced for all 4 years of college, except when my BP started showing itself in a big way my junior year. I was pretty sketchy about going to practice then, but senior year was that great year when I was captain and made 4th in New England.

I have hired an organizer to come in and she will be here next week (or when her ankle that she sprained yesterday heals)

After the organizer is done, we plan to maintain her work and we will hire a cleaning company to come in and deep clean and then come on a regular to semi-regular basis to help keep the place clean.

I am feeling positive about life in general and feeling like I could (with reasonable planning) do anything.

I think I am being careful, but sometimes hypo is tricky and I don't catch it until I am agitated and on the edge of psychotic features like paranoia. I feel like this is different, though because I have ECT to back me up.

Anyway I like feeling so well and maybe I will even get back into writing my book that keeps going to the wayside when I get depressed.

Just sounds like you are feeling human again to me. I do understand the wariness about hypomania, but this just sounds like you are reclaiming your life again. So glad to hear you sounding so much better.

[hamster-bamster]

I do not see hypo. Your writing is coherent. I see positive outlook but not too much giddiness. I see a woman who is making an all-out effort to take her life back. Fencing, wow! I have never met a woman who would be doing fencing. Only guys.

[BNLsMOM]

Fencing rocks!

Thanks for the quick replies. It amazes me how deep in the depression hole I was. I look back and there are such dark times behind me. Wow.

[hamster-bamster]

Re-read your depressed thread often, it should help keep the perspective.

[BNLsMOM]

Good idea, Hamster.

[rosesarered]

You seem to be perfectly fine to me :-)
No big extravagant plans for the future, you said you're happy so there's no irritability, you're making reasonable plans for the future. Seems that all is well. I'd try not to over analyze, just enjoy it! Be mindful of how you feel day by day, maybe have a special calendar where you just keep track of what you felt so you can watch for an even gradual decline.

[BNLsMOM]

Thank you. Please see my latest post. It kind of makes me think I was a little hypo. The irritability has crept in and the wanting to pass time by sleeping. I think it has to do with my meds.

Maybe, maybe not. Remember, even on meds, we have mood fluctuations and that is normal. Even "normal" people have their really good days and really bad days and they don't take meds. Try not to panic too much at this point. Give the meds a few days to settle in. You might let your pdoc know what happened with the med mix-up and your concerns about your extra energy days, but I suspect you'll be told to give it a few days to see how getting back on the correct med schedule affects you.