[Miss Laura]

I feel really good. I mean my depression has completely gone. This is what I like But my friends are too busy at the moment to see me. I make allowances as they are at Uni or are working full time or even a few jobs. Yesterday I saw my CPN who told me I am in such a better place now than I have ever been. Maybe not working has helped me after all lol! Since last Wednesday I have been flat sitting for my Sister and its made me realise how much I miss staying on my own. I think I need to move out my folks house and start living my life again.

Next Monday I have a meeting with someone from Citizen's Advice to help me fill in my DLA form. I have declined filling in one as well I do not see myself as 'disabled' but it will be handy money wise. My free bus pass is making life easy too!

I sometimes feel like my friends forget about me. Like I don't matter. I guess deep down I know that's not true. Its just they don't show me I mean anything to them. I barely see 2 of my 4 friends. I miss the blethers we use to have. I text them and even email them but still nothing.

I have even gone to the stage of not telling them when I am unwell cause what's the point? Guess I'm just moaning here. I don't really have anything to say.

Life is good at the moment, I guess I am on the Hypo-Mania streak which I like.

[plumapplepear]

Your friends will catch up with you if you are anything like me during a depression I tend to drive people away and not respond to them thinking I am so damaged I do not want to inflict my depression on them.
Maybe now that you are better daily walks and simple chats with new people?

[BlackPup]

Glad u r feeling better. Give your friends time, they'll come round. Try to keep busy if you can.

[Moose72]

I get like that when i'm hypo too. I start calling and texting friends.

[~Christina]

Enjoy feeling good ! I agree your friends will come around.

[BlueInanna]

So glad you're feeling good! You are right about how deep down you know your friends care about you.

[Miss Laura]

Thanks guys,

I spoke to my Support Worker and she thinks I need to get out there and make new friends. I am the greatest at making friends. My shyness comes out too much!

[wing]

I've moved recently and joined a couple book clubs, signed up for a class and am taking some lessons in a sport I like. I'm hoping that this exposure to people will result in a friendship or two. Oh, and don't forget support groups. I joined two of those. Sounds like a lot, but not of the activities are every day.

If you're still in school, you could join a club or two. I made friends at a job I had in uni also. Maybe try to find some one else who looks shy or alone in a class and sit close enough to start a convo.

Initiating friendships is going to be hard for me because I have social anxiety. I'm hoping someone will talk to me first. But I'm going to practice opening convos, and not expect friendships to develop overnight.

Good luck to both of us

[Miss Laura]

I play Badminton on Mondays and Swimming on Tuesdays. I have made a friend or 2 at my Support Group too. I'm not in school and I'm awaiting a call back about volunteering. I don't really like making the first move when you meet new people as I too have social phobia but its getting better.

I just wish I found social situations easier I guess!

...oh crap!...this is just bad bait for me and manic monkey can't help it!

I'm sensing reading minimalism playin' things down the real life **** playin' it down no good everyone else is so busy charging up we need to stabilise somewhere to the left slightly above but always right!

....I'm happy to call it spectacular because in all regards likely it is in fact ....spectacular for you and I agree!

nicely done how the mentally ill can be good value back up.

....quietly the monkey goes into the shadows and scratches his hairy head all ok..

[Miss Laura]

I don't see my life going the way I would ideally like it in the near future. I mean I have to get over the denial about having BP. I have to come to terms that my friends all have their own lives to lead. I know this and I really do. I just have a hard time telling my head this. Myy head is the one that is screwed up I guess!

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

I don't see my life going the way I would ideally like it in the near future. I mean I have to get over the denial about having BP. I have to come to terms that my friends all have their own lives to lead. I know this and I really do. I just have a hard time telling my head this. Myy head is the one that is screwed up I guess!

you probably guess correctly Miss...and hey thats not a bad thing it saves many appointments with mystery people to tell you the same! it's a beautiful thing no doubt and definitiley no doubt painfull.

I had dreams...ideals...wonderful imaginations ....I just gotta modify them a bit...yep

it's a unique path.....for sure a genuine one....stay close to those that understand...

[plumapplepear]

I also have had a hard time accepting the life my illness has envisioned when I was younger I struggled hard against the disease kept trying college work and never fully understood how my mind could betray me.

Originally Posted by plumapplepear

I also have had a hard time accepting the life my illness has envisioned when I was younger I struggled hard against the disease kept trying college work and never fully understood how my mind could betray me.

...I got this enemy inside me...

one things for sure I fear no-one and nothing!

it's this thing this living un-life inside me undermining every move I make I live...

I live with all my enemies

I sleep with them they keep me awake why lock the doors?...let them out !

I am fearless beyond myself it's within me the damage is done ....and awkward insecure I wander around taking deep breaths

yeah I know what you mean....

but hey it's ok