[Faraway tree]

Its tiring being so good with the healthy food/sleep/exercise/meds/work/appoitmets regime.

I just wanted a day off, so I didn't take the night pills and got drunk. Tut tut.

Tomorrow I will be good again.

Does anyone else have days off being bipolar?

[Miss Laura]

Hey Faraway tree,

Ye once every so often I stop taking my meds for wanting to have a 'normal' life. But I always go back on them after a week or so. I think living back home has made me not fall off the wagon as much as well someone is always watching

Originally Posted by Faraway tree

Its tiring being so good with the healthy food/sleep/exercise/meds/work/appoitmets regime.

I just wanted a day off, so I didn't take the night pills and got drunk. Tut tut.

Tomorrow I will be good again.

Does anyone else have days off being bipolar?

I have weeks off...occasionally a month.

I must be careful there is a limit to what I can take ...even from myself.

...at these times...tomorrow is not my friend i must look further ahead.

I understand what you are on about the high maintenance can be an illness all of it's own...

I'm more lost being symptom free than I am with them. I know how to live with them... not without. I feel like all of my development stopped in my early teen years and I am stuck being 33 and lost now. honestly, it was easier when the depression and the hypo were my main focus in life, cuz now I'm as lost as one can be without them. So no.... taking this much time off has led me into a different kind of depression and anxiety.

Originally Posted by landskaperdan

I'm more lost being symptom free than I am with them. I know how to live with them... not without. I feel like all of my development stopped in my early teen years and I am stuck being 33 and lost now. honestly, it was easier when the depression and the hypo were my main focus in life, cuz now I'm as lost as one can be without them. So no.... taking this much time off has led me into a different kind of depression and anxiety.

yeah I know what you mean...symptoms keep us pre-occupied and quite magnificently at that....almost like they were not even there!

yet they were the cause and this I find to be the bipolar checkmate!

I can't win...?

I have to get sick ....just so I have some direction...

to heal myself.

....and then I get sooooo well I can't handle it I get sick again

Finally.. someone gets it! thank you!