[hamster-bamster]

I do not even know how I did it. I do not even know how it happened to me.

I do not pay child support because I do not have enough money. My current job pays much less than the job I had when the support order was written. My ex does not mind. He understands. My ex with children are trying to save money on everything. When he suggested I get a T, he meant one of those places where you see an intern who is supervised by a licensed professional, and there is a sliding scale and with my income it would have cost 15-25 dollars a session. I was already on the waitlist at a couple of such places.

But I misunderstood him and started going to my former medical doctor, who, after giving me a break from his regular fee, charged 175 dollars. That was literally the last bit of money I had, not even thinking of child support.

I cancelled him today, explaining that it was a lapse in judgment and that I would wait until I get a permanent job with insurance that would partially cover my visits. I will call the intern places today.

But I am at my wit's end - how did it all come about? How did I decide that it is OK to go back to an expensive therapist, with my history of lack of success with expensive therapists? Beats me! $350 wasted.

[bluemountains]

I'm so sorry that your needs have cost you too much, HB. My guess is that the bp got the best of you, and in your mind you were able to justify spending all of the money. I am an expert at justification! At least it went to medical help. Now it sounds like you are in the planning stages again and will be able to receive the help you need soon.
Take care, HB!

[Victoria'smom]

It happens see if you can go through a mediator to get child support reduced and back child support on a payment plan.

[Mollie May]

When I go hypomanic, I can justify everything. Suddenly my needs multiply tenfold. I need X, and I need Y, and I need Z...it's never-ending really. And then I always crash into regret.

Best of luck as you deal with this.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

It happens see if you can go through a mediator to get child support reduced and back child support on a payment plan.

That is not an issue, he does not mind, he will even give me a letter saying that I am paying - I need this letter for my citizenship application. I have long been eligible for citizenship but have been dragging my feet with the paperwork; part of the submission is proof that you are not behind on support obligations.

[hamster-bamster]

Talked to p-doc yesterday. He REALLY recommended weekly therapy. So I will call the intern place tomorrow.