bipolar negative aspects

I get this with the people in my life as well. As long as they need me everything is good but the min i need someone its like a ghost town. I just keep giving all the time and never get anything in return. I have came to the same conclusion some people are just takers....

takers just have to be willing and open to learn to give... i think

Feeling lonely? I try to get one of my kids to watch tv with me or grab my cat and love on her.

Being truely alone? This one is the worst for me. Being alone for too long can cause me to have an episode. I am never alone too much because I can not be.

Having no motivation? I try to push myself to do atleast one small thing a day. Even if that is only gettting in the shower some days that is an accomplishment for me. I try not to expect to much from myself anymore
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Battling to find a purpose beyond surviving the day? This one is hard to because I often feel like just giving up, i feel so below what I know I am or atleast what I was before I became ill.

Feeling like you are being deserted or avoided This is a definate trigger for me.

Feeling overwhelmed? Another big trigger for an episode, I often get overwhelmed over hardly nothing. Having to clean the kitchen and do laundry. Normal daily things overwhelm me. I can get so upset that I throw myself into an episode.

I dont really have great coping skills in any of these areas. Sorry if I was of no help. just thought I would reply.

When I was younger I used to have a huge problem with being alone, I literally wanted to rip out my hair at times.When I was 19 I had Jordan,I was forced to be alone & my mom said that people who can't stand to be alone don't like themselves... Granted idk how or if this applies to MI sufferers, but it was true for me... I had aLOT of self-loathing going on, and didn't even know it! Since I've learned to like and love myself, I have no problem being alone. BUT that doesn't mean I don't like company too.

I actually don't mind being alone. There is a huge difference between being alone and being lonely. I was an only child so I am good on my own and relax on my own. But, loneliness is something entirely different. As the saying goes, you can be sitting in silence on top of a mountin with no one around for miles and feel fine, or you can be in a room full of people and be completely lonely.

Also, that whole "purposefully being left out," really gets me. Because it happened to me all the time and still does. For example, my cousin was getting married in Washington in June. I didn't have the money to travel there, it's over 1000 miles away. My entire family pulled together to make sure that everyone got to go... except for me... So now I look at all the pictures of the wedding and all of my relatives (who I was really close to growing up,) and my cousin who I considered a brother, having his wedding... and I didn't get to go. My other aunt (on the other side of the family,) even made a comment to my mother-in-law how horrible it was that they excluded me like that, when I was so close to that side of the family my whole life. So I know it's not me being overly sensitive. And that's the crap that triggers me. I can't stand being made into the outcast, and as I get older it just becomes more of a trigger than less.

Dark-heart you have got me to the nth degree. I am fine some days begin physically alone, and other days when there are physically people around, I can feel so lonely.

Exactly. They say loneliness is one of the worst emotions people go through. We are social animals whether we want to admit that or not. So being alone doesn't mean anything, but feeling as if you're not part of the tribe is what loneliness is.

I think this is an awesome definition!

So do I. That describes it perfectly.

Yip - spot on. And I felt this yesterday. This morning I have now woken up with an anxiety attack.
I really think my best friend wants to take 50 steps back, and I only 1 really close friend. No-one else to confide in when I want to scream to let go of the pain of loneliness