[tallwaters]

Everything is getting under my skin today! I WANT to self medicate to escape! I do not know what is wrong? I think i am angry but not sure. I wont self medicate. I dont know these feelings are hard to tolerate for me.

I totally have been there. Some days, I can hear a mouse a mile away like a clanging symbol in my ear, and sounds irritate my "aura" so to speak. It's like there's something over you, around you, and all incoming sounds, voices, happenings, etc. get to you. I think it's kind of like when you have a rash on your skin. Even the softest wool can irritate it. Why? Because your skin is wounded, and trying to heal. That leaves exposed skin in harm's way. Even when the harm is as innocent as wool and soft as silk. You should try to find comfort away from irritating things, which could be anything I know. Maybe you can lay down in a cuddly place. Maybe watch a corny but comforting movie from your childhood, or from better days. I like to watch Wonder Years from the 90s era. Maybe a cup of something like hot coffee, sweet, with cream. Maybe warm milk with a spoonful of something sweet, like caramel or strawberry with whipped cream. Maybe just go on a long walk in the woods where you can talk, cry, identify what it is that is the root of this "branch" of irritability. There is always a root. Find that root and pluck that root out and the whole system supported by that root will die! Love, Glinda

[thickntired]

I'm sorry you feel that way. I get really irritated when I'm manic.
And it's easy to fall into self-medicating so many feelings.

Peace & hugs,

TnT

[faerie_moon_x]

I get irritable so much. I hate it.

I used to be this really laid back and easy going person. Now I tend to just be this angry pouder keg. It's terrible. I try to bite it back but it leaks out.

I wish I had advice on how to tolerate it but I hate it too. I just know that self-medicating isn't a good answer because it can cause other issues.

[tallwaters]

Thank you for the replies. I ended up sleeping most of the day. I just couldnt deal with the feeling. Maybe I should journal?