[ggtina]

Seriously why do I not have the urge to work? Like no interest. Afraid to even fill out an application. Fear of not getting a call back, fears of the interview process. Fears of just working in general. It's been this way for the last 3 years or so. It's just not normal. The few jobs I have had I have not been able to keep. I've either gotten fired or found reasons to quit.

Earlier this month I was told by my landlord that I need to leave my property on September 30th. My wopping 2 month lease is expiring and she doesn't want to renew it. I still have not found a place to live. I don't have that much money. I don't qualify for wellfare (Soon to be ex-husband was paying $300/m for 9 months in alimony - about to end next month). I do get food stamps.

I am not on medicare as I can get seen through the VA Hospital nearby if anything arises as I am a Veteran.

I just feel like a week from now I am going to be homeless and I don't know what to do. I don't have a job right now I only have $817 to my name. By the first I should have roughly $1200 I hope.

I go to college part time right now because that's all I can physically do as it's a new program there offering and I have a lot of credits that transferred over from when I previously graduated. Decided to go back for another associates for the time being. With that this semester I will only be getting 1/3 of my Post 9/11 GI Bill benefits that ='s a whole $420/M. Food is covered by food stamps, I need at least $15.00 for the bus to get to and from school the 4 days a month I go. My storage unit is $125.00. I would love to get rid of this bill but I need a place to live where I can clear out my unit go through the stuff and maybe sell a few things. I do not have much. I do not have much leftover for rent.

I will not be getting the full benefits back for the post 9/11 gi bill till at the earliest January 1st or February 1st of next year.

So in the mean time I am so lost. I need to find a job of some sort. But first I need to move and it's no easy task with 2 small dogs (chihuahua's) which reminds me I still need to get the notice from my pdoc stating that one of them is a psychiatric companion animal.

In 2006 I was discharged from the US Navy for having Borderline Personality Disorder. States Reason for Discharge Borderline Personality Disorder on my discharge paperwork. BPD has no disability rating with the VA as far as I know. I never tried to file a claim. The research I did was kind of hopeless.

Its almost 5am here on the east coast. I can't sleep. My mind is racing with many different things. I decided to file a va claim for a disability rating for the following: TMJ (lock jaw), Migraines and Bipolar II disorder. Figured it was worth the shot. Than I used the power of google and started googling disability ratings for bipolar. So far I have seen 50% and 70%. So good ole google is giving me some home. Seen anywhere from 10% to 50% for Migraines. Don't understand that one to well. Well neither of them for that matter and 10% for TMJ the tmj one I only looked at one. I got lazy. So here's hoping I get some sort of rating through the VA. I think if it's high enough I will be covered with dental and vision which would be nice too.

Is there anything else I can do? I know I should go down to the public office and apply for emergency rent. I just don't know if I could get section 8 or Hud or something right now just to help. It sucks. I just feel like a giant mooch and don't want anyone's help but I think I am going to need it for the time being.

[ggtina]

Maybe you got through that cluster ****. Maybe not!
Why does it feel when your stressed your meds are not working. It probably is still but I wish I could feel numb to being stressed too.

[LostMom3]

Originally Posted by ggtina

Maybe you got through that cluster ****. Maybe not!
Why does it feel when your stressed your meds are not working. It probably is still but I wish I could feel numb to being stressed too.

I am sorry that you are going through such a hard time. I do know that there have been people with bipolar that have recieved disability or SSI. Do you have a therapist? They could explain why you still feel this way while on meds. Why did pdoc permanetly take you off the zoloft? Is he going to replace it with something else? I wiah you good luck. Maybe someone else here at PC will have more answers than I do.

[Clinte89]

I hope it all works out but defiantly look at HUD housing or do you have any friends or family you can stay with while your going through such a rough time untill you can get back on your feet? People go through hArd times that's what those resources are there for so don't feel like a mooch you just need some help is all.

[faerie_moon_x]

Yikes! I hope you can find somewhere to stay.

I say that if you need an evalutation for your bipolar make sure you tell them about your issues with trying to find a job. The anxiety and inability to overcome it, that's important information, I think.

[Victoria'smom]

Section 8 is a list, apply in several different counties, it could take up to several years. There is public housing that could take as little as 2 wks. Public housing usually takes 30% of your income. Ask for a non-hud income based list. Look into what Catholic charities have to offer. Go to the school's housing department people are still looking for room mates.