[OutlawedSpirit]

Okay, so I haven't been on here in a couple days because I can't seem to sit still long enough to really read any posts. When I went to my pdoc last week, she decided to take me of risperadone and put me on trileptal because the risperadone made me ache. She warned me that it wasn't an AP and to watch out for that. She also said if I got too hyper to cut my lexapro in half.

Anyways, so I since stopping the risperadone, my mania has gone through the roof. I did end up cutting my lexapro in half, but I don't think that helped anything, I almost think it almost made it worse, though it doesn't make sense. I am also getting some auditory hallucinations and mild visual hallucinations, which I haven't really ever had before. Has anyone else stopped an AP and gotten worse or new psychotic symptoms afterwards?

On top of that, I feel like I am literally loosing my mind. I feel like I'm losing touch from lack of a better way to describe it. I can't focus, I can't sit still, even after I ended up pulling a muscle in my back the other day, the pain isn't even enough to slow me down. In fact, once I get going, I don't even feel it. I'm sure when I come back down, I'll pay for it, but right now I couldn't care less.

I just don't know what to do. I can't sit still, I can't think straight, I've been trying to keep some music going at all times because it seems to help keep the auditory hallucinations at bay. I have an appointment with my T on Friday, and one with my pdoc next Tuesday. I honestly don't even know what I'm looking for in writing you all a novel, except maybe some ideas, suggestions, something? And suggesting physical activity is pointless, just an fyi, I've been out back lugging around logs, raking, and stuff for days. I feel like I'm on crack. HA HA HA HA.

[BNLsMOM]

I wouldn't wait till Tuesday to talk to your P doc. It sounds like you may be headed for an emergency if you ignore this. You might be experiencing rebound psychosis from going off your AP too quickly. Definitely talk to your pdoc ASAP so that he can give you some sound advice. Wishing you well...

[BlueInanna]

yea i think this is worth a call to the pdoc right away. this doesn't sound right. sounds very med induced. so the pdoc med expert should be able to fix it.

i had hallucinations from lexapro at my first and only dose! and yes, i had auditory and visual hallucinations from quitting cymbalta (another anti-depressant) don't ever quit that one cold turkey, big mistake.

talk to pdoc, maybe this could be from going off of risperdal. or maybe you could take the trileptal through out the day, rather than at night. i don't know how often you take it, but my daughter used to take it at night.

[OutlawedSpirit]

I take the trileptal once in the morning and once at night 600mg in all. Lexapro was 10mg but since I cut it in half it's only 5mg at night.

[manic most days]

I agree call your Dr right away!! Does everybody elses Dr's do crisis calls even in the middle of the night like mine does? They'll come out to the house and everything here.

[Anika.]

I agree sounds like reboumd psychosis feom stopping the AP so fast. Thats happened to me a number of times with AP's including the one you just stopped taking. I agree call your pdoc, and avoid taking in caffeine or any other stimulants until you see your pdoc.

Hope you already called.

So... One time I got really tired of loosing my mind, I decided to have it sewn on with tatooed stiches, pretty manic at the time, anyways , point is don't do that ... it never helps.

I hope you will be feeling better soon, hang in there, I know this isnt the fun part. Let us know how you are doing.