[ellipsisdream]

I have been going through a lot in treatment and with starting the application process for disability. I have not had boyfriend in the loop on any of it. I needed to try and look at all of the info and figure out what I needed. I needed to sort a lot out before an intelligent conversation could take place. I simply did not know enough...

Today I finally told him I was going for disability after struggling badly since 2007. I am exhausted. BPolar rapid cycles of up and downs with constant trials and combos of drugs... intermittent working. I go up and down several times in a few weeks and then just crash ans sleep for a bout a week. I just cannot go on this way.

I have been offered a DBT OP program that will be 6-8 months for me. It is next door to my therapist and pdoc. Free bus passes to/fro. Incredible opportunity to maybe finally get stable. I would have to go on disability.

I have fought that tooth and nail all of these years. I finally agreed to the 9months-1 year category on the forms. I AM going to work again. I will also use this time to hone skills even one hour a day. I am NOT going to let this disease steal my life. I do need to be more stable in order to claim it though.

He took this all so much better than I expected. Not great. And he is scared. But we are talking about it. He has watched me get up and fall over and over these last two years. He seems to understand- once explained- that this is ultimately something that might finally give me back some semblance of a life.

I am so relieved. And scared. But so glad we finally talked.

[Clinte89]

That's great it seems like your happy with the decision and he is supportive which is great to. Cheers to getting back to where you want To be

That does sound very good, Ellipsisdream. You seem to be a very mature thinker.
I'm glad that you've made up your mind not to let this illness get the best of you.

Make sure you're on the right dosage of medications. They should help to stabilize
the brain chemistry strongly. Then, watch your diet; please test yourself to see
if you fair better without coffee, tea, and caffeine in your diet in any way. For
more information on that, please go to http://DoctorYourself.com Look down the
left-hand side of the articles until you come to "caffeine allergy" by Ruth Whalen.

I've communicated with this lady and she is really in the know about caffeine allergies and the real harm caffeine can do to those of us who are sensitive to it.

Then checks out two websites: one on AlkalineFoods.com and Acid-reacting Foods.com Those two websites will help you understand that we need to try to maintain an alkaline atmosphere for our fluids and tissues. Certain foods are very helpful in doing that.

You're starting on a long journey toward very good health, and I wish you much success along the way.

Good wishes,

Genetic

[BlackPup]

Great outcome. I'm really glad he was supportive. Best wishes with your journey, I really hope this OP program helps you get your BP under control. Keep posting and let us know what you learn so we can all get better!!!! Hope you can get your meds sorted out too.

[Rose76]

Sounds like you have a plan and have tapped in to what resources are available in your location. It sounds like you have the resolve to improve your life. I'm glad your talking it out with your boyfriend went well. His support can help you get through what will be very challenging.