[bluemountains]

I'm back, trying to catch up on everybody. It seems that there's lots of agitation in the air, or maybe I'm just seeing it in the threads so far. Hopefully peace will be back for everyone soon.

As for me, my brain is mush, every muscle is sore. I am back to no sleep and I can't stand it! Last night I used my own formula-massive drinking and extra klonopin. Don't judge, it worked-eight straight hours of blissful nothing, no worries, no strange dreams. Yes, I have a bit of a depression pit today, but it is manageable.

As for my class, I have interesting dynamics. I dealt with my first mini race riot yesterday. I teach about half Hispanic and the other half African American, with a couple of Caucasian kids, too. The income level in their homes is very low or nonexistent, some are even homeless. During the verbal fight, the cuss words were flying, and they are only in fifth grade. It didn't happen in my class, but I had to deal with the aftermath. One child locked herself in the bathroom and wouldn't come out. A great way to end a long workweek.

None of the work stuff really bothers me. I work with a supportive staff, and this is just the way things are. We just have to do our best to make school a supportive and loving environment.

What's really getting me down is no sleep! My mind won't turn off at night. I'm not sleepy during the day, but my body hurts. I've tried to go to bed early, but no matter what, I stay awake for at least an hour and then I only sleep for two hour increments, and I'm up for good by 4:30.

This is my world right now. I am going back to the boards to catch up on page two of what is going on with all of you.

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[Clinte89]

Well glad your on even if its only for a day you always give good advice. Sooty your not feeling 100% bit it seems like your dealing with it ok except for the drinking on benzos I'm not judging btw. I used to do that for fun lol.

[BlueInanna]

hey blue, good to see you yes there a lot of us leaning toward the mania/agitation/anxiety side recently, maybe something about the time of year? sorry to hear you're having trouble sleeping, gotta get that under your thumb to keep the work schedule going strong. careful with mixing the alcohol and klonopin. maybe choose one or the other or go lightly with both? take care mama, luvya

[bluemountains]

I have put myself on a mission. I am going to get a bike (already went to Walmart and they didn't have the one I want) and I am going to put a basket on it. Then I can start cycling to Starbucks and the supermarket.
My husband says that if I do this I will become a super wino because I like to get wine at this particular market, and where we used to live all of the people who had lost their licenses would bike to the store to buy beer and wine.
I am off to another Walmart and Target!
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None of this has anything to do with my lack of sleep

[bluemountains]

One more thought about the bike, I could use it to go to my pdoc appointments since the office is only a mile away. This is all sounding like a good idea.

[Trippin2.0]

Good to see you around hope you level out soon, please take it easy