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Old Jan 22, 2013, 03:36 AM
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I have this horrible sense of dread and a feeling of worthlessness right now. My sorrow and fear are through the roof and I long for sleep though I tried and failed miserably.

Sometimes I hate my brain for what it does to me. I just want to curl up in a bawl and never see sunlight again. I want to officially just lay there until i breath my last breath.

I want to be ok again. I dont want to be so heart broken anymore. I want to enjoy life again. I want to be me.
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Old Jan 22, 2013, 03:52 AM
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this will pass it's hard to hang on through the bad times but there will be more good times. Curl up and cry the day away if you need to but remember that tomorrow is another day and try to get out into the sunshine and walk if you can...
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Old Jan 22, 2013, 06:52 AM
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I know it is hard it does pass. Are you talking to anyone now it helps me.
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Old Jan 22, 2013, 07:00 AM
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I usually do exactly what you are wanting to do - curl up, cry and sleep. And it's ok to do that from time to time.
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Old Jan 22, 2013, 08:15 AM
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Old Jan 22, 2013, 08:25 AM
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it might be time for med change?
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Old Jan 22, 2013, 05:28 PM
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I am planning on talking to my doctor about this. I am getting some bad side effects from the abilify I am on and things just still dont seem right. I am going to talk to him tomorrow. I want to feel normal again
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Old Jan 22, 2013, 10:53 PM
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Hope talking to your pdoc helps
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Old Jan 23, 2013, 12:00 AM
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I am planning on talking to my doctor about this. I am getting some bad side effects from the abilify I am on and things just still dont seem right. I am going to talk to him tomorrow. I want to feel normal again
I had bad results from Abilify, like suicidal rage, anxiety, akathisia. It seems to help everyone else but not me. Maybe a med tweak could help you through this. I went to lithium after that and it really helped the suicidal thoughts especially. Good luck with appointment tomorrow.
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Old Jan 23, 2013, 01:02 PM
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I had horrible effects from Abilify. I had to put my arms and legs out straight and hold on tight while my heart raced. Then I was always tapping, tapping my feet, fingers, hands, rocking back and forth... it was crazy
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Old Jan 23, 2013, 07:22 PM
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My Pdoc replaced abilify with lamictal, and he added seroquil for my insomnia. Is anyone familiar with either of these and what to expect?
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Old Jan 24, 2013, 06:06 AM
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Lamactil takes a long time to reach the therapeutic levels cos of the risk of getting a life threatening rash. It worked ok for me but abilify works better for me. I had no major side effects from the lamactil. As far as mood stabilisers go its fairly weak but also has good antidepressant actions.
Seroquel works great for my insomnia but I don't need it often. I think you need to keep increasing it if you take it all the time.
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