so how does a manic depressive stay above the shreshhold of total calamity?

stuffed if I know?

but hey seriously!...we all do it right!...or you would not be right here and right now ....and no matter what the crisis?....you and me are still alive!

sure looks that way...

so anyway there must be things we avoid ....things we avoid to manage this superbly complicated eccentric and devastatingly mentally challenged emotionally messed up existence...

I know a few people who are messy heads and incidentally OCD about everything and I'm one of them.
I know even more people who are messy heads and co-incidentally borderline about everything and I'm one of them.
I know some people who are messy heads and apparently ADHD about everything and I'm one of them.
I know nearly everybody with messy heads who are depressed about everything and I'm one of them.
I know nobody more than me with messy heads and anxiety about everything and thats just me.

1: it's unbearable for me to have untidiness anywhere...not that it doesn't happen but when I get onto it... it's much better.

2: it's unbearable for me to think I've upset anybody because I know I have the nice feelings....not that I share them much but when I get onto it...it's much better.

3: it's unbearable for me to finish anything ever because I know that all I understand is the battle to get there and I just die in the emptiness of success...and I can't concentrate anyway so any dumb excuse is good enough....not that I'm really dumb much but when I get onto it... it's much better.

4: it's unbearable for me to be truly happy or content because I know I have all this personal agony to justify and anything opposed to my gloom invalidates all my pain...not that I'm really trying to oppose my pain ....but when I get onto it....it's much better.

5: it's unbearable the panic attacks that immobilise me and leave me naked of confidence that I cannot spare any anyway like what??...
not that I'm really any good at expressing myself with humble force like the perfect way anyway!...but when I get onto it....it's much better.

it's unbearable to imagine nothin' means nothin'

it's also unbearable to know everythin' means everythin'

yada yada yada!

Number four.... you hit the nail on the head so hard it bent the nail! Thank you James. You described me in one sentence.

It gives me something to look at, some perspective on what I am doing. Wow!

...it musta' been 'hammer' time!...

lol

can't touch this! lol

...hehe