sounds absurd right? ... at first!

definitely at first it sounds absurd closely followed by stupid even!
...exactly if mental health has been a serious issue for sure it's sounds totally absurd to consider not knowing what a bad day is??

...but that's just the thing..this is the "normal human"...."mental human"...

split

this is where I get off!...not like "get off!"...but this is where my glorious ascent toward comfort is suddenly beset by more pressing matters.

...cos my mentally ill life can occur within minutes of itself...there's no consistency but inconsistency...occurring consistently!

...there's no regularity but irregularity...on a regular basis!

put complicated simple...when somethin' goes wrong doesn't feel right upsets me it's all I know forever from immediately and as far back to suddenly and until immediately now forever and overwhelmingly the entire future!

I don't know if that made any sense? but I get it...
and there is considerable borderline involved too...

and what a 'bad' day that can be sometimes if only it was just that...

so ...??

is it my plan to have a bad day instead of a bad life?...

yep!

one day at a time. I like it!