[Dymphna12]

I am having so much difficulty overcoming this. My mental state is declining rapidly. I can't seem to get over the hallucinations. I can't completely control my thoughts or actions sometimes. I have long lapses in memory. If I'm not crying or in a rage, then I'm numb and emotionless. Right now I'm literally seeing as if in a fog. It's hard to keep my eyes open, to move, to do pretty much anything. The anti-anxiety medication I was just given gave me the weirdest side effects I've ever experienced. I feel completely lost, confused, and alone. No one should have to go through this torture. I'm so exhausted with all of this. I wanted to show people that one can survive this, but this was before my mental state got worse. I didn't ever consider or expect it to get worse. Now I'm also ashamed, because I actually feel like I can't overcome it. The medications are tedious, and without the right medications, therapy is useless - but I've only found one anti-depressant that isn't giving me severe side effects, but it doesn't seem to be doing much of anything now. All other medications I've tried are impossible to take because the side effects are so bad I can't get through the day. This is an endless spiral.

Has anyone else gone through this this badly? If so, how did you get through it? I would appreciate any and all help and advice. Thank you so so much.

[hamster-bamster]

You need an AP. An anti-anxiety medication would not do much anyway, and if it gives you bad side effects, do not take it. Tell the doctor that you cannot tolerate it and need to find an AP that works.

[Dymphna12]

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

You need an AP. An anti-anxiety medication would not do much anyway, and if it gives you bad side effects, do not take it. Tell the doctor that you cannot tolerate it and need to find an AP that works.

Thank you, hamster. I did actually go in to the doctor for an anti-psychotic, but they did not have any samples to give me and I currently cannot afford a prescription for one. They told me I have to wait to see my psychiatrist who may be able to offer me samples and then I can apply for the Prescription Assistance Program once we find one that works. That's the 31st (can't get an earlier appointment).

Anyway, it's okay. Got through today better than the last three days, I guess. 11 days may hopefully fly by.