...sometimes I get stupid nervous when I decide to write stuff on here because this place can really creep me out!

...and pretty much just breathing the air anywhere makes me stupid nervous because living in this world really creeps me out!

as usual I don't know what I'm on about it's misty with a good chance of thunderstorms in my head. There seems to be nothing to do and as opposed to the stereotypical... "functioning" is the ultimate way to go in this life....?

...something seems suspiciously wrong with that according to me so familiar with the dysfunction and the malfunction.

I only cope as an individual when I'm not coping in the world!.... and then when I'm occasionally coping in the world? ...I'm bored out of my brain ridiculous! It's all backwards with mental illness!....for me anyway...it's all backwards.

I'm ok with malfunctioning...I'm better than ok with it...especially if thats what it's considered to be...and to hell with this seriously sick un-civilization...I'm never gonna fit into it i'm beyond it...a member of the evolved bipolar human species part of the cure!

I even make myself stupid nervous...but thats ok

[BlueInanna]

*searching brain database for words of comfort and wisdom*
*searching*
*searching*
*processing*
*processing*
*error*
*error*
*cannot compute! please run disc defragmentor!*

seriously i'm like "derrr" and the answer is? Phil the Alien?

this place is weird monkey. i'm sorta functioning, cleaning all day. but really... i cannot sort my mind out and having a little weird paranoia. i was sure earlier today that today there was going to be another big earthquake.

i feel like my legs are too long, like taller than the moon and my head is out there somewhere. and looking down at blue planet like it's a swirly marble, so pretty from far away.

i want things to make sense, but they don't... and times like these i don't feel much hope for this place.

must think of something positive or interesting... hmmm... well my favorite kitty, Mini, she's tiny gray and fluffy. and she brought me a little bird she caught, she looked very pleased with herself. little puma finding a fun time in today's weird world. kitties seem to be experts at amusing themselves. wouldn't it be fun to have claws and just run out the door and climb halfway up a tree, look around like a crazy kitty, and jump down?

xoxo

...fantastic imagination there C love it!

I want to be a kitty cat now too

*computing*
*derrr!*
*derrr!*
*recompute*
*derrr!*
*reboot*
*meeeeow*

I like your thread title dm! Saw it said, "oh yeah, know how that is!".

[Trippin2.0]

'The weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of A: Indifference, or B: Disinterest, in what the critics say...' one of my favourite lyrics from one of my favourite bands, Panic! At the Disco. It just seemed fitting And yes James, I relate, your thread title sums up why I wont go back on meds sssshhhhh dont tell the authorities

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I like your thread title dm! Saw it said, "oh yeah, know how that is!".

cool....

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

'The weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of A: Indifference, or B: Disinterest, in what the critics say...' one of my favourite lyrics from one of my favourite bands, Panic! At the Disco. It just seemed fitting And yes James, I relate, your thread title sums up why I wont go back on meds sssshhhhh dont tell the authorities

ssssshhhhh yep...your little secret is safe

hey Lia....I just had a peek at your band there and read the rest of the song...it does seem appropriate yes!

[BlueInanna]

I forgot monkeys can run up trees! Maybe I'm descended from kitties, but they de-clawed me? Maybe we're all descended from trees. I want to prowl through the back yard stalking little birdies and pounce pounce rawrr rawrr munch munch. Oh yea and show mommy! She gonna dig this what I did, pretty feathers!

it's funny how they do that...cats.
my neighbours cat has a bit of a thing for me cos I give it pretty cool snacks....and then every so often I find a bit of dismembered bird or mouse at my door. I thought it was pissed off at me or something but it's more like an "I like you alot" kinda symbolic thing.

...I wonder if you could do that after a date or something?...leave like half a sheep in the womans front yard the next day...

she might go..."oh yeah! this guy's a keeper!"

[~Christina]

Ha @ Half a sheep

It would show your ability to keep food on the table... Bahhhh bahhh bahhh

[BlueInanna]

which end of the sheep he be leavin? then I analyze the whole date situation.

I ate deer meat tonight for the first time ever, was pretty good actually. If the guy left any carcus on my property i might have to shoot him. :P

Oh yea so kitty left me the mouth half of the birdy, she'd eaten the butt half. Lol. I think it still means she luvs me the most!

[BlueInanna]

And another thing, those "yummy" snacks you give neighbor kitty, maybe he just returning the favor rofl.

you two are being extremely hilarious!!
very cool!
very funny!

I'm getting hungry too with all this....better have some dinner, actually maybe the cat left me a beak or something at the door but that won't be enough....it's pizza night

[BlueInanna]

Mmmm... pizza! I'm still hungry, as I didn't eat all my deer meat lol.

And I certainly didn't eat birdy beak which she left for me.

[~Christina]

I could easily drop off a chunk or 3 of venison on your doorsteps What a fabulous trip that would be !!!! Good reason to meet you two in real life

[BlueInanna]

How bout we meet in Miami? Or the keys, play with dolphins and eat pizza. It's sort of in the middle haha... leave the venison at home lol.

[~Christina]

LOL been to Miami before .. Ehh wasn't impressed .

How about Costa Rica ? I want to have a reason to get a passport !!!

You sure about the venison ???? I have 3 in the freezer... And I don't even like to eat it

[BlueInanna]

Costa Rica sounds great! We'll be eating fish there I love it! How do we get monkey into central america??

have you got a walk in freezer Christina?...hehe

so which is it C...Miami?...or Costa Rica? they might let a monkey in but I think they will put a giant needle in my butt cheek first!

...you really want to share that venison don't you Christina?......what about venison pizza?...is it the same as deer? so many questions about wildlife.....just there seem to be alot of venison and deer or both if they are the same over there I don't think I've seen any here in Australia...we have lots of camels...of all things!? ...camels are just like really big deer with a hump and sloppy lips right?

or I suppose thats like saying a vulture is just like a giant housefly with feathers and a beak?? or an octopus is really an alien that got a bit lost?....I dunno now I'm just getting silly

yep it sure would be a buzz to all meet

[~Christina]

LOL James !!!! Oh Oh Oh I would not want to process a camel for the freezer !

Damn shame we can't just snap our fingers a wind up in the same place to enjoy friendship and beautiful scenery.. Ahhh One day I bet it wil be possible .

Hehehe @ Dominic evolving into a vulture or the other way around

yeah that would be cool!

oops...I better call back the postman....had arranged for a camel to go to Tennessee

...ah yes Dominic my pet housefly who really is a tiny spaceship with even tinier aliens inside that I figured out their ruse because of the very silent propulsion system that they invented so as to go undetected to monitor and examine curious bipolar lifeforms like myself...but I detected them!!

...instead of a bzZzzZzz!...it makes like a bvvvvv...so quiet and it's always around and I just can't catch it?

....thats dominic my pet housefly! with a zoom lens!....looks more like a wasp...maybe it is a wasp?...dunno?



apparently they have a tiny alien factory on Proteus...one of the moons out the back of Neptune!
...and apparently it's time I think for my evening medication