[Miss Laura]

Hey guys,

I am having a very emotional day today. Christmas is very stressful and emotional for me. I don't know why as it never use to be. However ever since I became ill I have been like this. I monitor this stress in my life every year and I can't manage it sometimes.

I have been Christmas shopping for 3 days solid. The town centre is choco-block with shoppers. Crowds are a biggie for me. The heat in the shops are another stressor. Then there is the stress of what to buy people. I have set a budget for everyone.... but so far have overspent. This is another stressor. Today I was shopping with my Sister and my Mum who are both STRESSOR'S for me. Anyways today they were spending too much time wandering around town. They deviated away from the shopping plan and I find this hard. I was feeling like I was gonna cry so I had to take time out. I find this a stressor too as I get embarrassed.

Why do I do this to myself? I am feeling highly on edge now. Plus to top it off my Sister and I have fallen out as she is a weirdo. I just can't win with her sometimes, I am a pleaser and please everyone bar myself and they just don't appreciate me at all!!!

[jezzdobbel8610]

I'm sorry you are feeling like this, I don't have alot of advices but maybe you could do a little bit of xmas stuff everyday instead of doing it all now, and not go shopping with your mom or sister. I feel the same when I go out with my dad and his sister, they always wander to other places and it drives me mad. just try to slow down and not worry too much about xmas. hugs.

[Miss Laura]

Thanks Jezzdobbel8610,

I normally don't shop with them cause of this very reason. However me being me, I thought it would all be ok! You know when you feel stressed tot he point of exploding? That's me at the moment. Think I need a good cry and I will be fine, I hope!

I do most of my shopping on line rather than mess with the crowds. Makes life so much easier and generally the prices are better.

[~Christina]

Awww sorry Laura !

yeah I agree maybe do some online shopping or go out solo !

[Miss Laura]

Hey guys,

Ye I have done some online stuff, but I had to go into the shops for specific things. It didn't help I was quite short on money and had to wait until I was given money from the Government. Least its nearly all done now.... just will be better equipped next year I hope.