so the show must go on

so...!!

living is the fear of death...

and it's painfully accidental
and...
suicide is the fear of life...

go little piggies oops!!
and it's painfully on purpose...
(but for the purposes of animal safety no little piggies were hurt during this demonstration)

and the only thing in common here is the fear!

so....what is the difference?

if I'm afraid of dying I'm connected to the living I embrace the re-generating essence of the Earth...I'm at peace with my past, in touch with the future I can't wait to get there to arrive and expose myself to it and itself to me to be full of life to be afraid of dying is to be life abundant! and naive but correct to presume that my current experience being a known one is superior to an alternative entirely unknown one...positive completely indulged in the sacred purpose lucky at peace and supremely defiant toward any threat on my life and those I love....including myself. stubborn!


if I'm afraid of living...then I'm twice as hard to control because I'm talking about something I know about....I'm willing to embrace and select the one thing I seriously know nothing about over something I apparently know everything about!.. I'm going to over indulge in this life defiant experience to accelarate it's eventuality!....because I have decided I know everything about living? it's only a matter of time being hysterical sad about the past... condemned in the now and doomed in the future!...living has been painfull and death is the painkiller....it's an absurd but rational understanding that I will be 'alive' beyond this agony of living when I just die.... poor bees must be under such threats and experiencing delusions to kill themselves to survive??...when they sting poor things!... I don't know but this sure is the more intense topic like I said it's twice as hard at the very least to approach....stubborn too!

and now whats in common...?
...sure stubborn is obvious...yep

embrace is whats in common....to stubbornly embrace fear!
there is no shame in wanting to die ...but there is likewise no blame in wanting to live! any experience with the first one is likely feeling not deserving of the second one.

damn I write these stupid long posts I forget where I am?

there is no big finish

the show must go on!

whats missing here is instinct....and the instict to survive is the most powerful force in the whole universe...
and when dying becomes an instinct to survive..??

then that just aint part of natures show ....


oink!