[kdclement]

Hello out there,
I haven't been here for a while now, It looks like since June and I really need some honest opinions. I'm not sure what's going on with me. I recently moved to be closer to my significant other, we've been dating for 4 years and it's about time. I'm closer to work and things are supposed to be better b/c my life is so much better than it ever has been in my life. I'm much more stable, I'm holding a job and I'm saving so much money now that I'm not driving 45 miles back and forth to work. I'm much closer to friends and have time to actually make some time for them and recreational things to do. I should be so happy but I feel stressed, worried and a little lonely. Is this just my bipolar and I should just sweep it under the rug? I'm confused, it's not supposed to feel this way. I went out to lunch with my girlfriend and a friend, well I seem to ruin it almost every time since I seem to take something that's supposed to be good and turn it into something that ruins the day. I hear it wrong, then don't know what to do with it so I freeze when someone asks me what's wrong. I'm trying not to answer so I don't react in a bad way but that's not what ends up happening. The friend says something and I become vulnerable and start crying when the whole thing didn't have to go that way, I should have been able to handle myself better. I used to have such huge social anxieties but have really been able to conquer them. Something about this friend makes me vulnerable and I can't help it. Now I made everyone leave and I'm feeling sorry for myself. My girlfriend is going through a lot with her friends and I just wanted some time with her, I guess it's selfish of me. I think I'm having problems with co-dependency, maybe? I just want to hide now.

[BlackPup]

Moving is stressful so be kind to yourself. I always feel a bit out of sorts when something big happens like a move. Everything becomes unfamilar even to the little things like where to shop and what your neighbourhood is like. so maybe you are reacting to that.
Take little steps to do positive things and I hope your mood will turn around. If not then it would be definitely worth spending some time with a T or talking with your pdoc.