[Honey Bee Sunrise]

Today has been an okay day. I woke up a little wait, and my niece got here to visit me before I even got to let all of my dogs out (while she was here, she helped me pull the kitchen carpet! Yay!). The neighbor girl came over to do her chores at my house (letting the dogs out, cleaning the turtle's tank, and generally picking up the kitchen) and she just so happened to be here when the pharmacy dropped off my medicine (so she was able to grab the meds for me! YAY!) I got to try out the psychcentral chat and met some interesting people.

My cousin, who I love VERY much, called me a couple of times, and that kind of got me annoyed, because I get crappy phone reception in the house. The neighbor girl never came back the second time to let the dogs out, so I am having to do that now, and neighbor girl has her phone turned off (annoying because I pay her phone bill). My man was supposed to be here for breakfast for dinner at 8, and he's 45 minutes late, if he walks through the door NOW (annoying because I am a diabetic, and try to time my meals.) My min pin decided to poop in the hall, because she didn't go out as scheduled (waiting for the neighbor girl, because this is a high anxiety day for me). I want a shower, but have to wait until after dinner, because I am OCD, and it just doesn't FEEL right!!!

All of those little things are annoying, but they are not anything to feel RAGE over! However, I am feeling RAGEfull! I want to yell, scream, throw and break things.

I am (thankfully) keeping my cool, so far. I wanted to HURT the min pin, but didn't. I tried calling the man and the neighbor girl, but can't get a hold of either one of them - lucky them.

I know that this is chemical. I know that it will pass, but until it does I am just so frustrated and irritable!!!

[Seaswept]

You sound a little manic.

[Confusedinomicon]

Honestly, this doesn't sound like mania to me.

I would be pissed off, too, if I was paying someone to do something and they didn't show up...or if the boyfriend/husband is late for no explained reason? Little things do add up. I don't think it is 'bipolar' to be frustrated when something doesn't go as planned. I know I have been frustrated by small things and the hardest thing is accepting that they've happened and there is nothing I can do about it.

I hope you feel better soon, Honey.

[Honey Bee Sunrise]

Seaswept, Yes! I have been manic, suffering from mixed moods, or rapid cycling for a few weeks now! Arrrrgggg! I haven't had mood swings THIS bad for so long, but now I feel like I can't control anything

[Honey Bee Sunrise]

Confusedinomicon, you're right, that these things are generally frustrating. But my reaction to them is not my NORMAL reaction, if you know what I mean! Usually, I would raise my voice to this person, or that person, vent and it would be over. The other night, though, the rage just kept building and building!

[Seaswept]

I'm sorry your going through this, how are you feeling today? I pretty pissed off right now myself.