the bipolar daily check in thread..

rossiv46 · Dec 27, 2012, 11:47 PM

The day went well. I didn't do as much as I would like but I went to my pdocs office and meds im on seem to be helping so no changes this round. I have been baseline four a couple weeks and it's hard to accept no moods. Nice quiet

Dec 27, 2012, 11:58 PM

Last night late spent some very nice contented time with BF.

Today ok mood-wise. Got a big dry-reading info hunt done. Baking didn't happen, but a salad did.

Dec 28, 2012, 05:21 AM

about to eat my breakfast... then play some online games (well after i've checked this forum)

i'm feeling okay

BlackPup · Dec 28, 2012, 06:09 AM

Cleaned up my wardrobe. Now my maternity clothes fit in. It's 10pm and I'm feeling really awake but it's too late to call and chat with anyone. Should have my shower and go to bed. But will probably look through the forums instead.

gary290 · 07:58 AM

Day 2 on Haldol. Starting to mellow me out. Feeling more sedated. Thoughts are clearer or at least less racing and rambling. Wake up every hour or so at night now. Fridays usually suck for me but hopefully today will be better. Might check in a few times here today.

Dec 28, 2012, 03:54 PM

feeling good this evening.

listening to a lil michael jackson right now

mileysmom · Dec 28, 2012, 05:29 PM

cleaned a little bit of my closet (a big mess) hard to do in wheelchair ha ha. had a few hours of sleep last night so i'm feeling a little more chipper!
mileysmom

BipolaRNurse · Dec 28, 2012, 11:17 PM

Had a great visit w/ my pdoc this afternoon. I'm so fortunate that he does therapy as well as med management, and that we ALWAYS have 60-minute appointments.....I get a lot of gunk out of my system and learn something new every time. I've been all over the map mood-wise lately, but I know it's situational and will resolve once the holidays are over with and the stress load lightens up a bit.

Still, it's been damned uncomfortable living in my mind lately, and it was good to be totally validated and to get some new tools for coping with adversity. Sometimes I think he gives me too much credit, but that's probably because he sees me differently than anyone else I know and can view things more objectively. He's probably the only person alive who can get away with telling me I'm stubborn as a mule, because he also says I'm a very caring and loving woman who takes on too much of other peoples' burdens. I've never heard that from anyone else before in my life, but it's a balm to my sore soul.

Dec 29, 2012, 07:01 AM

just another normal day really.... thinking about maybe getting a KFC later (actually i was happy to learn it's stilll open!)

i read somewhere that KFC in america had been closed and borded up or something... and i am so glad the UK still has theirs!

SmokeyPoole2012 · Dec 29, 2012, 07:30 AM

I didn't do anything yesterday just laid around the house playing on my laptop or sleeping. I know that's not healthy but I'm so used to it that I can call it normal. Today is going to be different because I'll be spending time helping out at the community center at my church even though I'm still feeling blah.

I really wish these pharmaceuticals were more beneficial, I'm tired of walking around looking like I'm about to cry! A grown man ...

... it's just not right!

I miss KFC

hamster-bamster · Dec 29, 2012, 08:50 AM

Thinking about death and old age and cognitive and physical decline a lot.

gary290 · Dec 29, 2012, 11:29 AM

My meds are being changed and my wife is complaining that I'm manic, pressured, innappropriate, have no filter, etc. I'm so tired of starting and stopping medications I'm about ready to say screw it and just stop.

Cocosurviving · Dec 29, 2012, 12:32 PM

Did I mention already how much I like this thread. LOL. I've been visiting family the last week and it has helped. I'm dealing with depression. Last night was nice--I hung out w/ my parents. We cooked and watched tv. This morning has been laid back. We're been inside b/c it's so cold. My mood has been pretty good---no bad thoughts.

~Christina · Dec 29, 2012, 12:56 PM

I have been in Florida since Thursday morning , I have been to a theme park for 12 hours , been shopping all day yesterday, eating too damn much, not sleeping enough and I have crashed today.. My Fibro pain is about a 9.5 ! I have cried alot today due to the pain. So... I knew this would happen considering all I have done. It's ok I am just going to lay around , wander here on PC , watch tv and do basically nothing!

wildchild r · Dec 29, 2012, 01:27 PM

A bit down today..Had a girls night out, ended up drunk and angry..Dissappointd the girls I love..Im waiting for them to wake uo so I can apologise to them,.and get my ***** chewing..Im just not in a good frame of mind to indulge in alcohol,even moderately..I was a Really Bad Girl..Im ashamed of myself..

katgalaxy8606 · Dec 29, 2012, 03:44 PM

Hi, this is my first time on this check-in thread, but I have been on the boards for a few months now...

I'm actually doing well, I am on a 10 day long break from work, nearing the end but I'm still doing well. Anxiety free, just feeling really good and inspired...trying not to think about the fact that this may end soon. Work is a big anxiety trigger but I need to work in order to stay with a roof over my head and food to eat. I wish I could just quit working but I don't think that's in the cards anytime in the near future.

I'm just trying to block out anything negative.

-KAT

rossiv46 · Dec 29, 2012, 05:10 PM

Feeling bored today and unfocused. Im tired but can't sleep anymore. Going to my moms for dinner and watch my girls perform a fashion show. Should be cute. Looking forward to getting out of the house.

Dec 30, 2012, 09:14 AM

surprised at how quick today is going.

all ready quarter past 2 in the afternoon

gary290 · Dec 30, 2012, 09:41 AM

Hi. . .day 7 of sobriety for me. Not too many urges but lots of racing thoughts. Meds are helping to keep me somewhat chilled. Using the ABC's to deal with frustrations. See my therapist next week. Doing CBT with him. I'm not a looser because I relapsed. I'm a fallible human being (FHB) not a SOB

roads · Dec 30, 2012, 11:29 AM

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Originally Posted by gary290

Hi. . .day 7 of sobriety for me. Not too many urges but lots of racing thoughts. Meds are helping to keep me somewhat chilled. Using the ABC's to deal with frustrations. See my therapist next week. Doing CBT with him. I'm not a looser because I relapsed. I'm a fallible human being (FHB) not a SOB

7 days, and in some ways the hardest seven!

I remember racing thoughts in these early days and I wasn't diagnosed with bipolar then, looking back can't say I'm aware of being bipolar then ... Not as I am now, at least

Gary, don't worry so much about labeling yourself right now. Stay in the present and know you're 7-days' sober. Focus on that, stay in that present. That is the whole now. Slow down, keep it simple.

~Christina · Dec 30, 2012, 03:08 PM

Currently I'm here on PC taking a bit of a much needed break before I get all fixed up to see an old friend I haven't seen in real life for at least 10 years!!! I'm even doing the whole hair and makeup things

It will be great to just catch up.

gary290 · Dec 30, 2012, 03:54 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Roadie

7 days, and in some ways the hardest seven!

I remember racing thoughts in these early days and I wasn't diagnosed with bipolar then, looking back can't say I'm aware of being bipolar then ... Not as I am now, at least

Gary, don't worry so much about labeling yourself right now. Stay in the present and know you're 7-days' sober. Focus on that, stay in that present. That is the whole now. Slow down, keep it simple.

Thanks Roadie, I had 8 yrs, the 2 yrs, then most recently 6 months, and now 7 days. You are right: I need to stay in the present moment...be here now.