you know you are bipolar when.....

omg...lmbo

...It takes you 4 hrs. to write a self addressed envelope...

When you dont sleep for 4 days,playing metal all hours of the night,regardless of your family sleeping.Then leave your sister voicemails at 4am telling her you love her but she sucks coz she sleeps,and you get annoyed bcoz it feels like someone is rubbing sandpaper on your eyes and its impossible to type,dance,sing, read, and do your hair! And then yes, after 4am you wake your younger brother to praise his genius and make him promise to genetically engineer you 2 extra arms so you can multitask PROPERLY!

You sit reading the "you know your bipolar when...thread and think," these stupid #%$@# are pathetic. What is so funny about this illness meanwhile find it hard to believe it actually exists let alone believe that you yourself have it.

hahahahhahaaaaaaaaaaa I love these!

When you cry because you're so ashamed of what you didn't accomplish because illness intervened.

Damn, that's depressing. I forgot what I was going to post

Exactly!

Last night, I realized I have lived in this house since 1998 and I have never:

* Painted any of the walls.
* Put window treatments up (valances, curtains, drapes). Instead, I left the very cheap and poorly made mini-blinds that were up when I bought the house.
* Dusted the slats in the mini-blinds, and there are mini-blinds on every window in every room.
* Mopped the kitchen or bathroom floors (I kind of wipe around the floor with paper towels if things get really bad).
* Knocked cobwebs down.

everything changes around you
people start acting differently and asking if you are ok
they start treating you differently
even though you are sure that you are acting the same
as you always have
as you do when your fine
but they keep asking and soon it becomes clear
that you are becoming depressed
and everything has a meaning attached to it
and the meaning is overwhelming
to the point that you isolate yourself
and self harm is on the way
and soon the smallest of things
seem bigger than life to get done
and these people that had been asking you
they are all gone and you are alone
and just when it seems it can't get any worse
it's just too much and you can't hold anymore inside and
and... and you just give up.
somewhere in the realm of hopelessness and grief
there is a part of you that just won't quit
and soon it is that part of you that you focus on
and it starts taking over
things start falling back into place
and soon you are feeling much better
but the consequences you can't bear to face
people start coming back around
and your happiness returns
but it's all you can do to pretend that it never happened
and no one speaks a word
about it
and you get back on with life
and your hopes and wishes and dreams
until they get a little out of hand
and it seems like nothing can stop you
and you feel the need, the urge, the desire
to take everything farther and to it's point
and soon again they start asking you if you are ok
but they can't see what you do... they can't see it
but you can
and soon you are doing so much... allmost too much
but you can hold it together
and the anger starts setting in that everyone around you is getting in your way
on purpose they are getting in your way
and you break off from them
cuz without them you can do so much
and everything is going so fast
and you are in control...
until...
until you come back down
and maybe you will even out
but most likely you will fall back into a depression
and have to find that desperate fighter in you again..

what it means to live bipolar?

Dan that's spot on pip pip cherrio quite accurate.