[bp2012]

2012 was an especially bad year for me. I was dumped by someone that said I was only being used and I went through a terrible bought of depression, suicidal thoughts, thoughts of hurting myself and others, randomly about to burst into tears and finally threw in the towel and saw my doctor. She originally thought I came in for depression but I had tracked my mood swings ranging from wanting to die to feeling indestructible and she said it was over her head. She referred me to a psychiatrist who put me on Seroquel immediately after reviewing my diary. She was impressed at my initiative in tracking how I feel. I started feeling better after taking the first pill. I think, like a placebo effect, just the act of doing something made me feel better. I didn't care for the side effects, though. The drowsiness was almost intolerable and I had concentration and memory loss issues so I stopped taking it. It only took a couple days to clear from my system because I had a short lived hypomania moment and felt like my brain was in turbo overdrive mode. I seriously had like five separate thoughts going on all at the same time and thought I was going nuts. It seemed to taper off though and I'm back to my pre-seroquel self now. I'm still learning what it is to be bipolar II and what my triggers are. Currently I am opting to not medicate despite my general doc's concern simply because I'm not jumping off that bridge. I figure I can deal with the spikes and depressions as they come and, let's face it, the mania moments feel pretty awesome.

[twiddle]

Hi bp2012 You came to the right place to vent, to learn, to feel the same as everyone else.

Choosing not to medicate is a personal choice. Just keep close tabs on yourself.

I medicated because I accidentally took a few too many Klonipin and ended up involuntarily committed and was so manic I needed meds. I have been on my meds for about 5 years because I tend to be very irresponsible when unmedicated. Twiddle manic is not a pretty sight anyhoo.

Everyone here is really open and friendly and supportive -like I said you came to the right place.

[katgalaxy8606]

Welcome, bp2012. Nice to meet you. I'm fairly new, a couple of months, on the board. Hope to get to know you! -KAT

[BipolaRNurse]

Welcome to PC! Like you, I was diagnosed this year and it pretty much rocked my world, even though I've probably been bipolar for most of my life. You'll find a very supportive group here.....whatever one of us hasn't experienced, someone else has, and most of us have learned that helping others, helps us.

Glad you're here; hope you enjoy posting and learning here.

[bp2012]

Thanks everyone! ^.^

I have found that my friends & family, loving as they are, just do not understand. It was especially difficult trying to explain a depression state to my mom. I finally gave up realizing she couldn't understand. Having read a few posts on here I can already see I'll be a regular!

[LadyShadow]

Hello bp2012! Welcome to the forum! I am bipolar too and have been for a long time. I was on seroquel too and it wasn't for me. Not every medication is the same for everyone. It is your choice to stay off medication, but that choice wasn't healthy for me because I was in and out of the hospital because of that.

But like I said everyone is different. so good luck and welcome to the forum! This is an awesome place to vent

[bp2012]

Thanks, Plantinum! Nice Christmas card

[hamster-bamster]

Welcome~!

[Trippin2.0]

Hi and Hope you'll like it here

[Ash0198]

Welcome bp I have bipolar 2 as well! But It come differently...the stress of the hsc (high school certificate) pushed me to breaking point...my hypamania episodes were amazing!!! I'm a rapid cycler so they didn't last very long but still amazing! Haha. I even tried burning down my neighbours house because they were *** holes...and all I'd do was watch and I laugh about the thought of doing it(obviously do it hen no one was inside which btw I never ended up burning the house down! But did start the process and that wtf!!? Lol)...I knew after that point that something was really wrong with my mood swings and all!!! That's for sure...lol but I medicated and stable now ur not alone and we're all here to help each other!! . Welcome once again

[Ssommers]

Welcome! I have BP also and was diagnosed when I was 14 although not treated until 3 months ago because of my unwillingness. I am on depakote now and I feel amazing. Wish I would have found it sooner. Good luck with not medicating. I wish I could be that strong!!!

[Confusedinomicon]

Have you dealt with all of the emotional turmoil of the breakup?

Welcome to PC! I hope you enjoy your time here.

[bp2012]

Is it bad that "we didn't start the fire, it was always burning as the world was turning" came to mind? haha

Rapid cycling stinks. Yesterday I went from bright and cheery to ready to cry while watching a movie. Today I'm down in the dumps. I could use one week of pure mania to feel like a god again! Of course, I don't need to be walking in front of traffic like they mean nothing again. It's a wonder I'm not hurt or dead. Up or down, the moods each bring a risk and it sucks!

[bpinOk]

Hello im new here to... This place is amazing, I thought I was the only one that felt this way... I to went in for depression and turned out to be bp

[Clinte89]

Hello and welcome. Your story sounds similar to mine, a breakup triggered me something fierce. Dealing with it without meds can be hard so don't be worried about taking them if you have to.

[peaches86]

Welcome, Im fairly new to this site but have found it to be extremly helpful. Hope to get to know you better Take care and God bless.