....thought I was keeping up and likely I was expected to get together keep it!

together RIGHT!

feel like an old man so mentally exhausted what might take a few minutes takes even less than forever..

which just aint the hell much hey?!!

and to hell with everybody that can keep up..

cos they simply cannot be concentrating!

not enough ...

to see that I am struggling...

but I knew first....!...!

is this an advantage...?

takes time to find out...gotta stay around to find out just how far ahead I really might be!..

just imagine that...how amazing and who gives a sh..t?

[wotchermuggle]

I would like to respond, but I have no idea what you really just said.

i feel the same way, really. left out and left behind by those that are supposed to be there.... it really is like a game that they are playing, you are right.... but they really are not and can not be what they appear to be cuz no one could do that.

I hear ya!

yes, advantage to knowing first

[bluemountains]

This is the message I took from what you have posted, James, and it does give me food for thought.

Time goes slowly, and you have to wonder if the trudging through is worth it, but we need to keep moving forward because perhaps there is some good stuff there that might actually be worth the journey!

If I am completely off, at least this is the message that gave comfort to me. Thank you!

Bluemountains

I just read it again and it's tricky I don't really know how to say what I mean in ways that even I can figure out?

...but I believe you made perfect sense of it!

thanks...