it's when I let myself not be okay.
the rest of the day I am great... just ask anyone :|

I am hating this lifestyle.
it's not okay to not be okay.
it's not okay to be okay either... cuz it's a lie.

where can someone like me go?
I go here.
but the mornings are way too short.
and I feel like I am trolling on here cuz I just post and respond but no new friendships are made and I just end up posting crazy **** while evveryone else seems just normal to me and like I am the freak on here.....

but that's okay.
no one has asked me to stop posting yet.
so I still have my mornings.

[BlackPup]

It's ok to post whatever you feel like on here (within reason) if your feeling crazy then post crazy stuff if your feeling normal post normal stuff. Whatever works for you. And if it helps you with the rest of the day even better

[Anika.]

I dont think you post crazy stuff, maybe its me but i dont see it as crazy. Yes of course keep posting. Sometimes it's hard to answer to someone if you are not very specific, and it's hard to be specifoc when the emotions are all over the map. At least for me.

Remember when you and I broke down emotions from feelings from mood together here. When you said it was just like we took and engine apart and rebuilt it? And it was like that, it was tricky even for me to keep it all straight and ordered. But that is the stuff that good therapy can help us with. Making up the breakdown. That was DBT kind of stuff. But the more you learn about it and keep doing it the more it helps.

But please try not to feel like an outsider, not here. I feel like that too sometimes. I bet a lot of us do. Having a lot of eccentricities can make you feel like pony boy from the outsiders, buy maybe it's just a thin veil between us?

[Clinte89]

Dan don't feel like a freak your no different than the rest of us. Well maybe your having a harder time then some of us which I am sorry to hear. But hang in there buddy and keep posting plenty we like to hear from you.

[BlueInanna]

Your posts help keep it lively here Dan. You are one of my faves and one of the reasons I am here. You don't seem to hold back, and that's inspiring. It's good masculine energy that I try to cultivate more in my self and communications. Your poetry, your songs, your positive affirmations, your occasional angry rant, I love it all. It's the right way to be, it's how I want to be, to just be free to say whatever I want to say. I've come a long way from the child who didn't speak, still a work in progress.

post what ever you want here.. that's why this forum is here- so we can listen and understand.

[Victoria'smom]

you are not crazy. I don't post a lot or respond much.

[cute_cupcake]

I am the same. I dont contact people on websites just kind of rant and feel no one cares but i do anyhow. So whether I reply or not there's a chance i feel like you do but just dont feel i can reply or know how. like my reply is everywhere. i have trouble organizing my thoughts. I LOVE reading rants and personal posts. I dont feel as alone :]