what else is the purpose other than to put words to what it is that is happening to us.

here to describe and bring light to depression.
here to put words to mixed up, screwed up emotions.

here to feel the emotions and depression.

not to mention the ways I take hypo and make everything bad and worse.

I try to do my part.

lol... not to make things worse.... but to describe how and what I go through.

is the point really to avoid things...no
is the point to live outside of the things that happen to me.....idk

what is the point then?
maybe it's a curse......
maybe it's somethihng else....

oh yeah... its' mental illness....

something that can not be seen.....
soemthing that can only be felt and experienced....
somethign that can easily be forgotten about....

I wish it was a physical thing, not a mental one....
that way I couldn't deny it....

[BlueInanna]

You are good at putting words to things.

It is a physical thing though (it manifests in physical symptoms), it's just not something like being blind or something where it's obvious to people, and obvious the type of help you might need.

But since the symptoms come and go, we and others might question whether it's real or not. So much questioning myself, what the heck is wrong with me? Cuz sometimes I'm ok. And the bp thing just doesn't explain away everything for me.... idk

it is more mental and emotional for me than it is physical... maybe it's the physical thing making me this way but in the end it's the emotions and mental chaos that really get me.

the help that I need is prolly more on the borderline side of things than it is the bp. But I avoid that diagnosis...

prolly cuz I don't want another title....

been through enough to want one...

I hear ya blue! I get it. I wish I looked at your post and scratched my head and felt left out... but no... I get it lol.

yes there are mood shifts, and depression and hypo if not full blown mania.

yes... but there is always something else...
like it's waiting....
watching...
and it comes out on it's own...

it's not a mood shift. it's not hypo. it's not really depression...

it's like chaos. it's desperation. it's really really active!

desperate sadness mixed with repulsive emotions.

that's how I would put it!

i do agree you're good at putting words to things and writing poetry.

that's 1 of your qualities you should be proud of