[creativelight]

Circa 2007-2008 I used Topamax, it worked really good for me. It stopped my racing thoughts, I felt different, no doubt. I'm going tomorrow to the dx to get on meds again, see if I can get organized. I was thinking of asking for topamax when I remembered the side effects I had. My brain process slowed down.. Until one day I got scared because I couldn't " search my data base ".. I couldn't recall memories, information. I stopped taking it right away. I realize now.. That since then I've not experienced my racing thoughts like I used too... Not sure if my mental process stayed slow.. But I'm damn sure I became a different person afterwards. Not to complain.. But now I couldn't deal with having more side effects like that.. But I'm damn sure I won't take anything that would make me gain weight! Any of y'all had permanent side effects on this med? What's your experience and what would you recommend?

[hamster-bamster]

I took Topamax for a month. Lost orgasms, appetite, even desire to drink tea. Was perpetually dizzy. Felt unwell. Stopped. Recovered everything soon. No permanent damage except for one thing that bothered me yesterday. I was posting a recipe on here and forgot the word CLOVE. I searched for recipes online containing garlic and soon recovered the word I needed. That gave me an eery feeling because I lost a couple of. Words while on Topamax as well.

[creativelight]

Omg hamster I'm feeding my new born when I realized I lost a lot. I could never ever have my mind empty of thought before topamax, I always had a voice in my head, most of the time more than one voice. I never knew peace of mind before topamax but that thing did slow down my process of thinking. I was so fast making connections and associations. I guess it was kind of a good turn not to have as many voices in my head, it don't mind either that it doesn't take me hours of thinking before I can go to knockout sleep.. But I'm scared now of losing any more of myself.. Not scared, concerned..

[hamster-bamster]

Omg, that is a lot to lose...

Btw, I never said congratulations on giving birth. Are you formula feeding or breast feeding? Someone on here was breastfeeding on Seroquel, so apparently this is allowe. Seroquel, most likely and even with a low dose, would knock you out for a night of sleep very quickly. But I would be concerned that the sleep would be so deep that you would become unable to handle nighttime feedings.

[creativelight]

Thanks!!! I tried breast feeding for the first two weeks. My toddler did not like it, he would want to do the same etc. my husband also got jealous because I was always feeding her. So I decided to have peace of mind and quit. Now, I went to the psychiatrist and didn't even see him. The nurse practitioner spoke to me and got me the prescription. She gave me lamictal which I used before and made my vision blurry. But I decided to give it another try because when I did use it, I was also partying like a rock star. Now I will see if it goes well.

[creativelight]

To anyone thinking of trying topamax because it did remove the racing thoughts, voices etc I have to let you know my side effects besides removing my obsessive racing thoughts were strange... I became super spiritual, at the beginning I thought I was given a medicine to check if I was nuts. I started "talking to birds" not literally but as if with their chirping I was warned of things. Like the death of my bf brother at the time. I instantly found deep meaning in books, or would open them to find just what I needed to fit. Since I did love those side effects even if other people felt now I was really crazy, I kept taking it. Even when friends recognized that i was noticeably slow. Until it did what it did. Once I was completely blank and unable to retrieve my memories I stopped, but never went back to normal.