[~Christina]

I have over served myself loads of medications, The pain has to lessen, So the medications will help or there wont be a reason to even care anymore.
Enough is enough.
Love you guys

[BipolaRNurse]

Christina, you need to call 911 NOW and get to the hospital. You don't want to die, you just want the pain to go away. Not a one of us here doesn't understand that. But this isn't the way to take care of the pain. PLEASE get some help, and let us know you're safe. Please.

[roads]

If I take too much of some meds--anxiety, eg, it can cause anxiety to go up. Can this be with yours?

Have you talked with pain specialist about zero-sensory chamber? They discovered with stsronauts that be closing all of senses in represent floating water tank that's body them, pain is short curcuited. Anything like this available?

Everything hasn't been exhausted. Do you want to go to NM and see a shaman?

[kindachaotic]

Christina, how are you doing now?

Is your husband aware of so much meds?

Go back to ER to keep yourself safe.

Let us know.

[Trippin2.0]

Hun, my heart bleeds for you, please go back to the ER, I know you want relief from the unrelenting pain, but checking out is not the answer... Been trying to respond for hours, but the stupid glitches only let me read, and eventually respond, just as I'm about to hurtle the phone into a concrete wall... I'm thinking of you sis, wish I wasn't sitting here helpless on the other side of the world You're one of the strongest women I know, you can beat this sending you lots an lots of love Christina

I demand an update!

[OutlawedSpirit]

How are you doing? Please let us know that you're okay

[dugan123]

Please let us know how you are doing? We r all thinking about you!!

[bluemountains]

Hi Christina,
I am so sorry for your constant pain. As Roadie mentioned, have you seen a doctor that specializes in pain? My sister has being seeing one for two years because of an injury. She also sees a pdoc, not for the pain, but I just wanted to clarify that it is possible to have pain meds and psych. meds that are able to be taken at the same time.
Hopefully by now, though, you have sought at some relief. Let us know!
Bluemountains

[Trippin2.0]

Sis please check in with us, we're worried about you ((((((((((Christina))))))))))

Hi, Morethingswrong.

Don't you have fibromialgia? And isn't that the cause of much of your pain? Please see a specialist who treats that so that you get relief. There is much that can be done to help, I feel sure.

Does the medication "Pristique" mean anything to you? It seems to me I've
read about one person who took that and got significant relief from fibromialgia. Under any conditions, please follow my husband's advice: "You
don't ever give up".

Try not to load up with psychotropic meds, because they are going to give you an acidic residue that may be making fibromialgia worse. I just don't know about this in terms of fibromialgia, but I do believe you need a specialist and soon.

Praying that your system will calm down and give you relief. (Try the Omega 3
fatty acids--better than bipolar meds in my view) and see if they give any relief in the interrim.

[Anika.]

I hope you check in too, so worried about you. I know this is ridiculous to have to go through. And it can seem like there is no light at the end of the tunnel with chronic pain. But you help me get through my own because you are such a fighter. You are strong, that is true. I know sometimes it really is too much.

I agree that more meds might actually work against us and make the pain worse. And all you are trying to do is get some relief. Its a horrible catch 22. We all love you here and really care that you have to go through this. Just thinking of you and really hoping you are ok and safe.

Please keep yourself safe, even if you have to check in somewhere.

[Confusedinomicon]

Agree with everyone else. Please check in soon!

[bos314489]

I am so sorry you are in such pain. Please let us know you are okay. We are hear for you and know what you are going through.

[hamster-bamster]

Honestly, I know my limitations by now and I have always held you in highest regard for being able to function and be helpful to others while in so much physical pain.

[BlueInanna]

Thinking of you gentle hugs I'm not much for words right now... Please check in with us if u can. You're an amazing magical dragonfly woman.

[~Christina]

Hey everyone. I'm so sorry I worried you guys .. Gawd knows you all have enough on your plate to worry about and to add me to it.. well that's just unneccesary

So I just took loads of meds of all kinds last nite. I woke up in tears once again ! I am kind of surprised I woke up to be honest . My pain is still at 9-10. I got up, found the few letters I had written.. Yes I am a selfish person.

I have seen every specialist to treat this horrible never ending pain. Pain clinics will not help a person with Fibro. I tried Cymbalta ,day 3 I was in the ER for 4 bleeding ulcers. I no longer have health insurance so I do not have the option for more and more useless doctors and there so called treatments.

I am tired of always hurting. I am tired of my pain dictating what I can and can't do. I ignored my pain while in Florida with my Daughter... It was worth every minute.. Now 2 weeks of this pain ? will it be 3 or 4 weeks or maybe months?? I am so pissed that once again I woke up crying. I dread waking up. The last time I woke up with none of this pain .. Over 4 years ago !!!! Yes 4 years. I just can't get ahead of the pain, I hate it I hate I hate it.

Again ,I am sorry I worried you all

[hamster-bamster]

You are not at all a selfless person. In fact, ignoring it in Florida was selfless.

[BlueInanna]

I don't know much about fibro but it sounds like a cruel horrible thing which doesn't care who it tags, kicks and cripples it makes me so angry that they don't have enough solutions for it yet. Do u think the Florida milder weather was a help? Does fibro react to weather?
And I'm grateful you are alive today. I know you probably aren't... That was a close one. Please be safe. You're not selfish, you're in pain and need help. I'm praying for relief for you while staying alive!!!

[~Christina]

Weather can play a part.. cold hot humid high and low fronts..My pain level normally is a 7 or an 8.. but 9-10's it's unbearable,stops you from taking a deep breathe.

Blue, you are correct I am not happy that I woke up today. The amount of things I took and the types should have done the job 10 times over. I have no explanation for that ..other than that, I am meant to just keep on suffering.

[BlueInanna]

I don't know what it means either I don't think you're meant to suffer Christina. The fibro hits randomnly as far as I know, not fault of yours. I had some complication after a shingles outbreak. The symptoms were like reynauds syndrome. Piercing needles feeling on my hands and feet, horrible pain all over like my body was attacking itself. My body was attacking itself wtf? Body's not supposed to betray us like that.

[Anika.]

Christina I don't think you are supposed to be suffering either.

Like Blue said sometimes our bodies even tho they should never, they attack their own selves. There are a few of here who bodies are doing this for different reason, but that is what our bodies are doing.

I think this can be so extremely difficult partly because it does not line up with anything else in our lives. We are working hard, we are trying to be the best people we can, we have good heart and good intentions, we want to be better in our lives, and this.. what our bodies are doing is extremely out of line with our very beings.. it is a huge conflict.. it does not reflect our own very beings.

You are not selfish Christina, not at ALL. You are anything but that, you are in pain yes, and struggling yes.. selfish no! It is not you. You are such a dear special friend to me... it is hard to even find the right words. Maybe you are here because you are needed.. yes even despite the pain, and that is so not selfish Christina. You are needed, By your husband, your daughter, his sons, me, people here, and maybe that is selfish of us, I don't know. But meeting you was truly a great moment for me.

I just don't want you to give up yet. I know that, and I know none of this is fair, or right, or makes any sense at all. It's doesn't, I just hope this goes away, today, tonight, tomorrow. I am so sorry you have to be in pain. But I really love you my kindred spirit. Try to wrap the warmth of your friends around you, to comfort you, At least know we really are with you in spirit... you are not alone.

[manicminer]

Glad to hear you're still with us

[~Christina]

Blue Thank you hun.

[~Christina]

Anika Thank you

I am just such a mess right now. I can't really even put into words what is going on in my head. I love ya.

Maybe I will be able to make some sense of it all tomorrow.