[TrulyRose]

I posted this as my introduction but was told to bring it to the bipolar board. So here it goes...again.

Hi, I am a wife and a mother of 3. I don't know exactly where to start but here goes! I suffer from PTSD, bipolar, ADD, extreme shame, anxiety, borderline personality disorder and insomnia. (I think that is all lol)

The PTSD is from two traumatic things that have happened to me. First I was severely physically abused at the hands of my stepfather, (but you know, according to my mom and stepdad it never happened.) yeah okay! The other instance was about 2 years ago, I walked in on my best friend kissing my 13 year old son, she was almost 30 years old. I came to learn that this was going on for about 3 years starting when he was only 10. Since then we have filed a police report and she is now in jail. Her sentence was 6-23 months in jail. She served 5 months getting out early with good behavior. She was out two and a half weeks to be returned to jail on parol violations. (I hope she stays there for a LONG LONG time!)

I was a stay home mom for 12 years and have recently got a job for the first time in a long time. I enjoy my job, it is a very professional environment being a law office.

I have been depressed for a very long time. I hate that I could not protect my son and that it was happening right under my nose. I feel like such a failure as a mother, and wife. I have had nearly no interest in an intimate relationship with my husband. Being intimate with him just makes me think about what happened to my son. It's so hard to escape those thoughts. Every minute of everyday I am stuck reliving that moment that completely destroyed me and my family.

I am on pristiq, lorazepam, adderall, trazodone and meclizine (for vertigo). I was on abilify also but I wanted off of it because it was making me gain weight, after just losing 40 pounds I didn't want it back. I am happy with my meds at the moment but I feel like my body is already building up a resistance to the. Adderall, I've been on it for nearly two months. WOW! What a difference that made for a while.

Just today I started feeling really good. After only about 2 hours of sleep I had a fantastic and very accomplishing day. I got more done then I have in the past 3 months. I have an unbelievable amount of energy, leading me to believe I'm heading into a manic stage. Until I was diagnosed with bipolar I didn't know anything about it. I have read a lot about it and it's so strange to see myself right there in words in front of me.

I have so much more to say but I think I'll leave it at that for now. (Mostly because my thoughts are starting to jumble up in my head and I'm staring to get a headache)

Welcome to PC

[TrulyRose]

Thank you! Looking forward to becoming more enlightened about all of my mental disorders.

[usbusi]

Welcome. Yeah it sounds like mania might be kicking in with the two hours sleep and all the energy.

[~Christina]

Welcome to PC Glad you found us!

[sugahorse1]

Hi there and welcome to the community!

[Victoria'smom]

Hi... welcome, are you and your son in therapy?

[BlueInanna]

Hello welcome. I have an ex friend who was having relations with 15 yr old boys, she was over 50 lying about her age and she told me she found my 15 yr old son attractive. I did go to the police, but years later I still struggle with the rage. She was also giving and doing drugs with the kids. My rage is bad I really still so angry. I feel so bad what happened to your son. We try so hard to keep them safe.

[TrulyRose]

I plan on replying to all of you but I have to get the kids off to school and get ready for work (YAY! It's Friday!!) be in touch very soon. Have a wonderful day!!

(I should mention that I'm in a manic episode, I'm not always so freaking cheerful )

Hello! nice to meet ya! I'm Dan. I hope that you find your own niche on these boards of ours.

nice to have someone new on the boards.

welcome along..

[TrulyRose]

Hi Dan, I have liked what I've seen here already. It's very nice to connect with others that have so much in common. I look forward to learning more about myself and how others deal with everyday ordeals. It's so different being able to just put it all out there and knowing someone really understands.

[TrulyRose]

Originally Posted by BlueInanna

Hello welcome. I have an ex friend who was having relations with 15 yr old boys, she was over 50 lying about her age and she told me she found my 15 yr old son attractive. I did go to the police, but years later I still struggle with the rage. She was also giving and doing drugs with the kids. My rage is bad I really still so angry. I feel so bad what happened to your son. We try so hard to keep them safe.

We do try so hard, because we care so much. When I walked in on them I wanted to beat the snot out of her and make her pay. BUT her kids were home and I loved those kids nearly as much as my own. I was in the delivery room with her for her last child. That baby and I were so close, she even called me momma. I am a big believer in karma, she s getting what she deserves, over and over again. She is a lifetime offender on Megan's Law. She cannot be with children under 18, except her own. She cannot have any access to the Internet and her list goes on. She wasn't even able to stay out of jail for just 3 weeks!

[faerie_moon_x]

When he was only 10!!!!??? Holy cow! I have a 10 year old son. He likes pokemon and video games and is just kind of getting into the idea that girls are pretty. I can't imagine an adult doing that to him.... I don't know if I would have been able to keep myself from pulling all her hair out.... Wow, and it to be your friend, that's terrible.
I can see why you are traumatized. Such a terrible betrayal...

[Anneinside]

TruelyRose, you don't need to feel guilty about not knowing what your "friend" was doing with your son. What is important is that you took action once you found out about it and went to the police. One thing I would add is that if you haven't looked into counseling for your son then you might want to consider that.

The summer between kindergarten and first grade I was molested. I told my mother. Her only action? She told me to stay away from him. She never addressed it again. Now that is something to be ashamed of.

[manicminer]

Welcome! The more the merrier. Hope you get what you came for. This place has a heck of a lot to offer.

[TrulyRose]

Originally Posted by Anneinside

TruelyRose, you don't need to feel guilty about not knowing what your "friend" was doing with your son. What is important is that you took action once you found out about it and went to the police. One thing I would add is that if you haven't looked into counseling for your son then you might want to consider that.

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The summer between kindergarten and first grade I was molested. I told my mother. Her only action? She told me to stay away from him. She never addressed it again. Now that is something to be ashamed of.

Anneinaide,
It's so sad, why would she not do anything about it. My first and foremost priority are my children, they need to feel safe and if the one person (mom or dad) can't take and make sure (as best as they can) nothing awful will happens to your young children. I do believe revenge would have been so much easier had I not known her "so well". She had us all fooled. Well a actually,y extended family couldn't stand her and neither could my other friends. They would always tell me "something's not right with her" I would just tell them
That's silly you just don't know her like I do. Now I wish I would've listened. I guess I'll have to call it a live and learn situation. One I couldn't have prolly have done without!