[Broken Angel]

Hey everybody!! Just wanted to vent a little bit and found no other better place than here. I was just done with my mid-term exams a few days ago and now I am trying to enjoy my mid-term break. I am so glad I wasn't manic or depressed during the exams, because that would have ruined all my efforts. It all went good. But what happened after the exams was the worst. I got hypomanic and it was awful. I am mostly that kind of an introverted girl, but when I look back on what have I done, I feel so bad. I hate getting manic and I hate being a rapid cycler. When I looked on what I was able to write during these couple of days I feel so proud, but when it comes to actions I did I feel like burying myself alive. And the worst part is that I am getting now into my depression part which I hate too. I am sleeping like almost the whole day, and when I wake up I will just keep sitting in my bed, either eating, watching a movie or just reading. I had a lot of plans to do, but this depression is standing like a barrel infront of me. A few days ago I saw the registration form for my IGCSE exams, which will be next year, but there is a question that I will be supposed to answer about it asks if I have any health problems or mental issues, and if I do I have to set in my requirements for the exam. I know i have got a year to think about what to write, but it just worries me alot. Like am I supposed to write, that yes I am a bipolar, and then my family will get to know and my teachers and everyone will be just asking me all about it, or do I just ignore that and say that I am totally fine and then I would have to just struggle enough with my exams. I thought I would be able to hold up everything about being bipolar by myself and that it would be easy, but now I realize it's so difficult to struggle with it.
Thanks for reading this, I am glad I have got somebody to listen to me

[hamster-bamster]

In what way would the disclosure benefit you? Would you get more time to write the exam? You do not need to disclose unless there is a clear benefit.

[Victoria'smom]

Unless you get test accommodation or would like them I would answer NO. They mean only if it effects the test.

[BlackPup]

I agree with the above posts..,.
Hope your depression gets better

[Broken Angel]

I would like to have the exam in a room alone, it would be a lot easier to me to solve the exam, because then I won't get irritated by every single detail around me.
Thanks for your suggestions

[BlueInanna]

Originally Posted by Broken Angel

I would like to have the exam in a room alone, it would be a lot easier to me to solve the exam, because then I won't get irritated by every single detail around me.
Thanks for your suggestions

That would be ideal testing situation, good for you. You deserve the accomodation.

[Broken Angel]

Originally Posted by BlueInanna

That would be ideal testing situation, good for you. You deserve the accomodation.

Thanks, I will consider that

[faerie_moon_x]

Hi Angle, I've been thinking about if you're okay so I'm glad you posted.

I agree if there is a benefit to you to disclose then that's the only reason you should do it. Otherwise, I don't think you need to.

Also, I know how you feel about it's hard to deal with bipolar all alone. I have dealt with it for my whole life all alone and it's hard for me to ask for help. My husband is supportive although he doesn't understand. But, I am still very nervous when I ask him for help. It's hard because I'm used to just taking care of myself and keeping everyone out. I've never told my dad about my diagnosis because he was never suportive so I don't expect it now. So, I understand. I think the goal is to find people you feel safe with that you can tell them, and then that becomes your support. It's not easy. I'm still working on it myself.

[Broken Angel]

Originally Posted by dark_heart_x

Hi Angle, I've been thinking about if you're okay so I'm glad you posted.

I agree if there is a benefit to you to disclose then that's the only reason you should do it. Otherwise, I don't think you need to.

Also, I know how you feel about it's hard to deal with bipolar all alone. I have dealt with it for my whole life all alone and it's hard for me to ask for help. My husband is supportive although he doesn't understand. But, I am still very nervous when I ask him for help. It's hard because I'm used to just taking care of myself and keeping everyone out. I've never told my dad about my diagnosis because he was never suportive so I don't expect it now. So, I understand. I think the goal is to find people you feel safe with that you can tell them, and then that becomes your support. It's not easy. I'm still working on it myself.

I am always here, watching stuff behind the curtains, it's really hard for me to have communications with people over here. Sometimes I feel out of place, but at least this is the only place where I can vent out my feelings. Thanks for caring, that was really cheerful
I am still thinking about all that, I still have got one whole year.
I am glad you can relate, it's really hard to ask people for help. I sometimes feel ashamed to do that. It's not easy at all to find people whom can understand and be supportive and not to freak out and just get away from me. I hope you find that person whom can be supportive to you.

[faerie_moon_x]

Well, Angel, I for one think you fit in here just fine so don't worry about that. I think you bring a lot to the board.

[Broken Angel]

Originally Posted by dark_heart_x

Well, Angel, I for one think you fit in here just fine so don't worry about that. I think you bring a lot to the board.

Thank you, that's so cheerful