[iluvdukie1]

I have felt soooo good this whole day! I will tell you the parts of my day, I will say this is my highest day yet, but there were a few times when I got depressed for like 20-40 minutes, also being anxious and paranoid. I can honesty say that the times when things started to die down and I wasn't as high, I missed it a lot, it is one of the most amazing feelings ever! For my day, first of all, in the morning I was soo happy running around getting ready for the day, and I talked a lot more too. Then at school, in the morning I REALLY wanted to find people to talk to, which I did, but yet the person didn't really want to talk. :/ Also for the morning, I kept getting pumped about how awesome it would be. Then during health class, I was abnormally happy and giddy. I kept laughing at everything, talked a ton, started doodling a bunch, and started answering questions. Then, during my FCS class, I felt jittery, answering almost every single question the teacher had addressed to the class. During my geography class, I would have to say it was one of my more calm highs, but I kept thinking of stuff and stupid ideas the ENTIRE time. Like my thoughts were racing a bunch. During my science, I got all giddy again, started talking a bunch, coming up with more stupid stuff that I needed to say or do. During band, I was really "high", like I kept screaming at my teacher (in a joking way, not mad) screaming his name over and over again to ask him something or point out something random, then I started poking him over and over again, I felt like I wanted to talk ton, so I started following this one person so I would not be alone. Then I started smacking people in the arm a ton to annoy them, which I accomplished also scaring them, I even punched one of my friends because I wanted to hit someone so bad. So she started hitting me with a little plastic snake a bunch, which made me laugh a bunch since it left red marks in the shape of a snake. Then during lunch, I wanted to talk a ton. Not much to say considering I had to rush so I could go to do jazz band stuff. During jazz band, I wanted to talk a bunch, and succeeded. I was sooo happy then, but I periodically got super anxious, then paranoid, then depressed for like 30 minutes. Then after that I got all high again, which made me happy. Afterwards, I really wanted to be with people, but since I had to go home late, I had to stay in my band teachers room extra, causing me to be alone with people I don't talk to, causing me to become depressed again. But this time, it lasted for a about 45 minutes. Then I went to Staples, getting super high, wanting to talk a ton, running around the store, wanting to but everything in site. I did get a $20 pair of new headphones, my brother crushed my old pair, a $3 iPod stand thingy, and a $1 new to do list! I know that if I had more money, I would have bought a bunch of things, like a new $70 office chair, an iPod cover, or a more expensive to do list, but luckily I couldn't. I even wanted to buy a new $100 desk. I have never really had that much of an urge to buy stuff in a while, so that also tells me that it was one of my "higher highs". I actually even went to a bath and body works previous to going to Staples, buying two candles, a candle holder, and a new hand sanitizer.
After getting home, I immediately went into my room to put all of my stuff in its proper place, at this point, having racing thoughts a lot. After I did that, I called my friend and talked a lot, planning to meet up with this one guy, getting SUPER and unbelievabley excited about it. Super anxious to talk to people, I go to meet up with this guy, so excited that my whole boy was shaking terribly. Only to find out that he wasn't going to show up, making me angry, rambling about how he is stupid and wishing that he would have came. Since he didn't come, I got bored quick. Since I was SUPER hyper and talkative then, I started messing around a bunch, laughing the whole time. Me and my friends started jokingly screaming "*****!" at each other, finding out that an old man was watching us, causing us to laugh a bunch. After this, I started hiding things inside the building so no one could use them, started smacking people until they threatened to beat me up, tried to trip people multiple times, succeeding once. Then I took another guys shoes, stuffing wet paper towels into them, along with toilet paper roll things and empty, crushed water bottles. At first, I tried to put them into the trash, succeeding, but then decided to put them in a place he can't reach. I left after that point, so I do not know how things went with that. After I came home, I started to have racing thoughts again. And that was my day. Throughout the whole day, I was super talkative and talked really fast, I mean I don't think people understood me most of the time. I heard a lot of "What?"s. I honestly can say that I really enjoyed today, it felt great. Please comment telling me if you think I was pretty high up there today. Also, I just love hearing from everyone on here.

[MommaR]

You just sound so excited!! Be wary of spending when you're on a high tho... can be a hard cycle to break when ur BP and as you get older the consequences can be harsh. Glad you had such a great day, tho!

[iluvdukie1]

Thanks, and yep I will have to be careful with that. I tend to buy things a lot when I have money available, as long as I find some way that I can use it, I want it. But at other times, I don't really want much of anything. And I am so glad you commented, I absolutely loving hearing other people's opinions. It is nice to be able to share was is going on with other people and know that people are listening.

[Cocosurviving]

Hi.,
I'm glad you enjoyed ur day. Mania can be good as long as you're pretty stable and can manage it. I don't mind being manic in the gym or when I need to complete some paperwork. I know what pitfalls can happen too like the insomnia (early warning sign).

[iluvdukie1]

I totally agree with you, it can be enjoyable in some cases, but in others, it is not at all.

[unstablemind8]

You should explain the "high" thing. I remember that day!!! You need to message me about your trip with the shoes. You might need to email me, though, because I haven't posted enough threads to send messages...I don't know if I can receive messages........

[iluvdukie1]

By high, I mean like a super happy and elevated mood.

[~Christina]

Hey Iluv

Glad you had a "high day" It does feel great.

Everyones "high" is on there own "personal level" My high may be too much or too little for others. If I'm riding a high I have to watch my sleeping habits thats my biggest Clue that I need to do a self check .

Enjoy and be safe

[sugahorse1]

High days are what keep a lot of us going through the darker days. Relish every minute! But be careful and look after yourself too

[iluvdukie1]

Yeah, that is definitely true. And don't worry, I will make sure I don't anything stupid.

[Cocosurviving]

Congrats----enjoy & keep checking in with your self

[TrulyRose]

Originally Posted by iluvdukie1

I have felt soooo good this whole day! I will tell you the parts of my day, I will say this is my highest day yet, but there were a few times when I got depressed for like 20-40 minutes, also being anxious and paranoid. I can honesty say that the times when things started to die down and I wasn't as high, I missed it a lot, it is one of the most amazing feelings ever! For my day, first of all, in the morning I was soo happy running around getting ready for the day, and I talked a lot more too. Then at school, in the morning I REALLY wanted to find people to talk to, which I did, but yet the person didn't really want to talk. :/ Also for the morning, I kept getting pumped about how awesome it would be. Then during health class, I was abnormally happy and giddy. I kept laughing at everything, talked a ton, started doodling a bunch, and started answering questions. Then, during my FCS class, I felt jittery, answering almost every single question the teacher had addressed to the class. During my geography class, I would have to say it was one of my more calm highs, but I kept thinking of stuff and stupid ideas the ENTIRE time. Like my thoughts were racing a bunch. During my science, I got all giddy again, started talking a bunch, coming up with more stupid stuff that I needed to say or do. During band, I was really "high", like I kept screaming at my teacher (in a joking way, not mad) screaming his name over and over again to ask him something or point out something random, then I started poking him over and over again, I felt like I wanted to talk ton, so I started following this one person so I would not be alone. Then I started smacking people in the arm a ton to annoy them, which I accomplished also scaring them, I even punched one of my friends because I wanted to hit someone so bad. So she started hitting me with a little plastic snake a bunch, which made me laugh a bunch since it left red marks in the shape of a snake. Then during lunch, I wanted to talk a ton. Not much to say considering I had to rush so I could go to do jazz band stuff. During jazz band, I wanted to talk a bunch, and succeeded. I was sooo happy then, but I periodically got super anxious, then paranoid, then depressed for like 30 minutes. Then after that I got all high again, which made me happy. Afterwards, I really wanted to be with people, but since I had to go home late, I had to stay in my band teachers room extra, causing me to be alone with people I don't talk to, causing me to become depressed again. But this time, it lasted for a about 45 minutes. Then I went to Staples, getting super high, wanting to talk a ton, running around the store, wanting to but everything in site. I did get a $20 pair of new headphones, my brother crushed my old pair, a $3 iPod stand thingy, and a $1 new to do list! I know that if I had more money, I would have bought a bunch of things, like a new $70 office chair, an iPod cover, or a more expensive to do list, but luckily I couldn't. I even wanted to buy a new $100 desk. I have never really had that much of an urge to buy stuff in a while, so that also tells me that it was one of my "higher highs". I actually even went to a bath and body works previous to going to Staples, buying two candles, a candle holder, and a new hand sanitizer.
After getting home, I immediately went into my room to put all of my stuff in its proper place, at this point, having racing thoughts a lot. After I did that, I called my friend and talked a lot, planning to meet up with this one guy, getting SUPER and unbelievabley excited about it. Super anxious to talk to people, I go to meet up with this guy, so excited that my whole boy was shaking terribly. Only to find out that he wasn't going to show up, making me angry, rambling about how he is stupid and wishing that he would have came. Since he didn't come, I got bored quick. Since I was SUPER hyper and talkative then, I started messing around a bunch, laughing the whole time. Me and my friends started jokingly screaming "*****!" at each other, finding out that an old man was watching us, causing us to laugh a bunch. After this, I started hiding things inside the building so no one could use them, started smacking people until they threatened to beat me up, tried to trip people multiple times, succeeding once. Then I took another guys shoes, stuffing wet paper towels into them, along with toilet paper roll things and empty, crushed water bottles. At first, I tried to put them into the trash, succeeding, but then decided to put them in a place he can't reach. I left after that point, so I do not know how things went with that. After I came home, I started to have racing thoughts again. And that was my day. Throughout the whole day, I was super talkative and talked really fast, I mean I don't think people understood me most of the time. I heard a lot of "What?"s. I honestly can say that I really enjoyed today, it felt great. Please comment telling me if you think I was pretty high up there today. Also, I just love hearing from everyone on here.

I completely understand your "high" today. For years I've been depressed, but for some reason yesterday was the most amazing day. Not that anything special happened out right, but something amazing happened inside me. I was happy, content and I actually had energy. I hope to have more days like this, and I hope you do too!!