[BlueInanna]

Being sensitive, hyper-sensitive is beautiful and to be honored. IMO we live in a world of weird times, where this isn't as respected as it should be. Maybe we're the pioneers and systems busters here to show the world how to get back to sensitivity and compassion. It has been a work in progress, but keep on keepin on cuz there will be many more of us to come, they need us to stay strong and continue the Great Work (as the 10 of Earth in Tarot calls it). Love & Respect to all you beautiful bp people.

[Anika.]

Blue I am seriously sensitive tonight, and this just makes me cry... Like overflowith. Thinking of all of you, and everythong you have all trusted to share. Beautiful people .. So beautiful. Even if I was not feeling so sensitive I would still cry.. But Blue this is one of the best posts I have read.

Thank you beautiful.

[sugahorse1]

So true. This is something we can truly be proud of.

[Speed3]

I always thought my sensitivity was a defect. The only one who respected it was my beloved dad. He always said with pride my Leslie brings home stray animals and stray people, so she can love them. God bless you Dad

Yes sensitivity should be cherished and cultivated.

Nice thread, Thank You

[creativelight]

<3 I always thought that this so called illness was really more us being sensitive and connected to the universe than the average bear. We see the world through a different perspective, and that's a good thing. Thank you for your words, to remind us that we do have a purpose and are needed. Kisses

my oversensitivity get me in trouble a lot of times. I have learned growing up to hide an ignore it. it's just as of late that I am trying to unlearn that.

How are you doing Blue? Well, I hope!

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Originally Posted by landskaperdan

my oversensitivity get me in trouble a lot of times. I have learned growing up to hide an ignore it. it's just as of late that I am trying to unlearn that.

Dan, you are at a point in your life where being yourself is exactly what needs to happen. You have been hiding long enough.

So inspiring...this whole thread.

Please keep these feelings with you and let them give you strength, all you beautiful people.

being yourself is vulnerable, and it could lead to tears and such.
That has never been an option for me growing up.
I see myself poking through in some ways...
but I have to question if it's actually safe to let down all of my defenses.

[creativelight]

Originally Posted by landskaperdan

being yourself is vulnerable, and it could lead to tears and such.
That has never been an option for me growing up.
I see myself poking through in some ways...
but I have to question if it's actually safe to let down all of my defenses.

What's the worst that could happen? Disappointments and hurt are all bound to help us learn the lessons that will help us become better human beings. Without sadness we wouldn't be able to enjoy happiness!

[creativelight]

Granted I know how it feels to just be Tired of learning all the lessons, why can't we just find that nice contentment place with lots of happiness and laughter with little no to no misery. I do know that when we are broken, we get reborn and that is beautiful; however, I can't wait to be hole, with the divine light shining Through!

I second that!

[Anika.]

Sometimes Dan we have to stop questioning and just do, or rather not do,because you are doing a lot right now to protect, and we just have to be.. Who we are, where we are.

I don't understand.

Originally Posted by Anika.

Sometimes Dan we have to stop questioning and just do, or rather not do,because you are doing a lot right now to protect, and we just have to be.. Who we are, where we are.

am i being overbearing?

[Anika.]

I mean Dan sometimes to find out what will happen we have to let go of our defenses. Defenses take a lot of doing and a lot of energy, not to mention pressure and stress and a host of other things. We can hide so much that we become so far away from our true self, being your true self is more of just being, rather than the action of doing. Always doing is a lot more exhausting emotionally and physiacally than just being is.

To feel whole I think we have to embrace our whole selves and follow who we really are with our words,actions, and thoughts. I think that is how we find that contentness that creativelight is talking about. To be reborn as a whole being in your own right. When all that we are refelects each part in harmony. When that happens you loose the push and pull of inner turmoil that is always playing a game of tug of war within yourself.

Does that make more sense? I mean in how you try to protect yourself and hide, and how you try to protext your family from you. But I think they love you, and I don't think you will hurt them. You are a good person Dan. I don't mean just letting it all go and we will be a mess, but being your tue self allows you to heal whatever needs to be, it allows you to look at where you might need help and the openess to welcome changes and heal, youbloose a lot of the judgment you hold yourself to.

what if the real you is really not a good person? shouldn't we strive to be better and put the effort into it? that's my dilemna...

I don't mean 'you' as in you... just a figure of speech

I kinda feel like i'm damned if i do, and i'm damned if I don't right now. You are telling me that I need to be myself and that's what I thought I was doing.

I really, really respect and listen when you talk... so this is throwing me for a loop.

Originally Posted by landskaperdan

being yourself is vulnerable, and it could lead to tears and such.
That has never been an option for me growing up.
I see myself poking through in some ways...
but I have to question if it's actually safe to let down all of my defenses.

I know exactly what you are saying here. I was a sensitive kid and was berated and made fun of by an A-Hole step dad until I shut down all emotions that show weakness. I still remember the day that "Switch" flipped. This switch is seemingly fused in place to this day, but I try to let my actions speak for what I cannot say or show on my face.

I don't know if I can tear down this wall that has protected me since I was 13.

I do lookout for the sensitive people I know and will protect them from the A-Hole People out there in the world. I really like the Anti-Bully programs in the schools these days. Maybe the rule of the bullies is almost over.

Thanks for this thread, Blue

oh, that's what Anika was responding to... I was so confused! I'm sorry Anika.. I didn't realize where you were coming from.

I am overly sensitive. I'll be the first to admit it. I guess I owe you an apology.
I'm sorry.

[Anika.]

I don't know if you are or if you are not Dan .. only you know , I am just going on what you have talked about here a lot with haveing to hide and pretend or fake it.

I don't think who you really are is a bad person at all. You might need some healing of old wounds, to not judge yourself so hard and nurture yourself. You are very hard on yourself, which might not be justly deserved. You are very compassionate to others, to give the same compassion to yourself might be a really good thing.

Anika, I'm not trying to do anything wrong, and I'm not trying to upset anyone. I'm sorry for saying that I feel that I am damned if I do.

You are trying to help me. And I thank you so much for that.
I feel like I am upsetting you and that's the very last thing I am trying to do.
I don't understand what is wrong with putting the effort into who I want to be.
i'm sorry if I am being protective.
I just don't want any bad feelings towards me or anyone else.

your last post slipped in while I was typing.

I do talk a lot about hiding. I do. You can not be so sure i am a good person underneath.

[Anika.]

And yes Dan I think you are really working on this especially right now!