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Jan 31, 2013, 03:31 PM
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The monster inside
is me the real me the untamed me The monster inside is who i am Im a monster Im am dangerous The little boy inside Screams Afraid of the monster Not sure how to cope The little boy inside is lost Terrified Cant accept That he is also a monster I am a monster
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Jan 31, 2013, 03:33 PM
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I would say the monster is the child just needing some love and acceptance.
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Jan 31, 2013, 03:36 PM
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Maybe so thats just how Im feeling right now on the edge of tears and smiling about it. I dont want this. I didnt ask for this its not fair.
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Jan 31, 2013, 07:32 PM
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I feel ya Clinte. There is a very horrible, evil, destructive person inside me, waiting to be unleashed upon the world. I kept him buried for 20 years with the help of my parents, the clergy, and Scout leaders, even though neither they or I knew it at the time.
When I went away to college, and got away from all those things for the first time, he started to show his ugly head. He became known as "Toolie" among the people closest to me that began to see and feel his wrath. He is not an alternate personality, just me in an unstable condition. But with the help of doctors, medications, and now just personal insight and will power, he is once again entombed in the labrynth that is my mind.
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Jan 31, 2013, 07:46 PM
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Well thats great to hear. Im still working on mine. I thought he was hidden away but no he is not.
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Jan 31, 2013, 07:48 PM
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Can't see the stars without the dark of the night
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Jan 31, 2013, 08:17 PM
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I suppose your right blue.
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Jan 31, 2013, 08:50 PM
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Jesus needs the devil...
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Jan 31, 2013, 08:54 PM
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I need my dark side to manifest to help me realize I had a problem that could be treated. Who knows where I'd be if he hadn't. Dead most likely....
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Jan 31, 2013, 09:17 PM
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I agree with you miner I prolly would have been dead too.
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Jan 31, 2013, 09:23 PM
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I feel like a monster a lot of times. people tell me that i'm not, but I can't help but wonder if they were to feel the way that I do... if they would run away screaming. screaming "monster!"
I totally get it. but for as much as you feel like a monster, there is a part of you that does not feel that way. that part of you must really be hurting.. it is for me when I turn to the monster instead. these things will pass. when? I don't know... but just keep in mind that you won't always feel the depression and the anxiety, nervousness and restlessness that come with a mixed episode. take care of yourself, and looking forward to hearing how things are going in the morning. |
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Jan 31, 2013, 09:33 PM
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Thanks Dan. Your right it will go away but during the situation it's hard to see the way out.
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Feb 01, 2013, 07:52 AM
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you're a very cool monster Clinte
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Feb 01, 2013, 11:40 AM
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Thanks James your a good and cool monster yourself. He'll aren't we all monsters in our own right?
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Feb 01, 2013, 11:47 AM
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Quote:
 I think so...  maybe?...  oh crap!!...nasty...  whatever we are it's ok!
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