[pogar246]

I feel like I have reached out a couple times for support and I havent really got any responses.
Maybe my expectations are too high.
Either way here I go again...
I truly hate my life.
I wish time would stop so everything would be still and I wouldnt have to deal with LIFE anymore.
I wish I could fall to the bottom of the sea and stay there.
I wish I had the courage to end everything.
I wish my kids didnt need me.
I wish love didnt hurt.
I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up.
I wish my tears would stop and my pain would go away.
Where can I go so it will all just go away?

[Trippin2.0]

I have no pearls of wisdom for you, I find myself seeking perfect peace, just to be free of everything, yesterday I said I wish I had a batcave like batman, just a place to hide until I'm ready to come out, or sleep until the world makes sense... it may not mean much, but I do hear you and hope you feel better soon

[~Christina]

Sorry you are feeling so low. I don't have any answers as I am falling down the black hole too. You are not alone, if that helps at all.

[sweetmadness]

Me too.

Sometimes life itself causes the highs and lows, the pain and passion comes from being able to witness it in its awe inspiring totality. This should maybe cheer you up, if you could find something you could see in their entirety, like your children or love, and then think to yourself--I am a gift, my children are gifts from heaven. I need to support them, by not giving up on my life and carry on, in the sense that you have sacrificed so much and there's no reason not to see it to its fruition, like your kids growing up and facing the world head on.

[BlueInanna]

Sorry it's so hard right now I don't know if there a way to get away, I dream of a getaway. Kids make it impossible cuz they'll always need us.

[Victoria'smom]

I understand. I'm so sorry your feelings so bad. I know it's hard but can you call your T or pdoc for a helping hand out?

[sugahorse1]

It's hard right now, but please remember it's an episode that will pass and we're here to walk with you

I can tell you about me, cuz that' all I know. But for me, when I feel that way, I regress deep inside of myself. There's no way I let anyone in to my personal hell, so the fact that you are reaching out is really good!

It's a cycle! Never forget that. We cycle in and out of this. Some people have described it like a curse, others like a chore... but in the end, for me, it really helps to view it as a pattern that I know will soon change in a week or two and that I just have to hang in there until the depression lightens and then I start working on healing the emotional damage that it leaves behind in it's wake.

I hope that this helps you.. helps you get perspective... cuz when depression hits like this, perspective is one of the few things that are in your power to control.

[faerie_moon_x]

yeah, I agree it's a cycle. If there is one truth, the cycle will always change. I'm sorry you're having a rough time. Hang in there! It will change.