My consciousness

Well I am in need of some help. I wonder if this is normal. I have my conscious kind of talking to me, tellin me how good Sui would be how it would help me, it also wants me to destroy things. It's not like a voice just in my thoughts. How can I stop this?

The technique in the link may help although you don't have that condition. If you don't like it, just ignore my suggestion.

http://rufusmay.com/index.php?option...id=94&Itemid=9

Thanks I read over it a little ill read more when I get home but there are some helpful advice there.

You tell that suicide demon to shut the F up and not today. I know exactly what you're talking about. Your mind whispering those horrible lies into your head and how suicide is right there. It's the lie. That's the thing we have to keep vigilant about. We have to protect ourselves from ourselves. Kind of messed up but true.

Well at least I know it's not only me. I have been bordering mania and was worried I was getting psychotic but it's still something ill bring up to my doctor.

Suicidal thoughts are a symptom. Remember that. If you're having them frequently and they are bothering you, then yes, do tell the doctor. Make sure that you tell whether or not you have a plan.

I like to use the pain scale for suicidal thoughts. You know the pain scale they use like 1 is not painful up to 10 which is worst pain ever. Suicidal thoughts are not all the same. A 2 is a fleeting thought. A 10 is a "I have a plan and I've started making preparations." It's a good way judge where you are and how sever it is.

Thanks thats a good idea. Thanks much your great. Much love

I had those when I went into the hospital in November. THe thoughts wouldn't leave. It was like another person inside my head.

((Clinte)) I've had a similar experience really recently, but then my doctor upped my zyprexa and the thoughts mostly went away. Maybe you just need a med change?

Don't listen to it. Please stay safe.

Well I'm on three anti psychotics and no help I take seroquel at night zyprexa as needed and stelazine twice a day. No relief in sight.

I was having symptoms on antipsychotics, too. You might just need them upped.

Yeah well he also put me on gabapentin so well see how that helps ill be taking that three times a day. I take my first dose at 4 when I pick it up so ill keep you updated to see how I works.

but its after 4....?

oh Im in florida its only 3:26 here. So less than an hour to wait.

Hmm. hour different here. Thought we were on the same time as florida.

Nope I wish though.