[Wrobin24]

I was first diagnosed with ADD when i was 13, 5 years later i have been diagnosed with Type 1 Bipolar and Intermittent Explosive Disorder. My Bipolar is pretty mild, I've only had one major episode that led me to be diagnosed. My real problem is my anger... I found out i had this disorder after i got into a fight a year ago. Basically a friend of mine bumped into a kid at a dance party, as the night went on they kept provoking us, to the point where i became panicked. I went to the restroom took out my belt and wrapped it around my hand. I put the belt wrapped hand in my pocket, exited the bathroom and saw my friend standing by a wall. I went up and stood next to him and then the kids walked up and surrounded us against the wall, there were about 6 or 7 of them. The last thing i remember was a kid coming up and punching my friend in the face. After this i totally blacked out...I snapped and from the panic of the situation i exploded with violence. The only things i remember are a few sounds, no images whatsoever. When i finally came-to I was running outside while putting my belt on. After the incident i asked my friend about what happened. He said that after he was hit i cracked the kids head with the belt buckle 2 or 3 times then proceeded to swing it around and hit a few of his friends, they then all attacked me and tried to get me to the ground, but I made a hole by grabbing a kid, head-butting him, and then picking him up by his legs, and throwing him into a wall before sprinting away. During the altercation i was also told i was hit multiple times although I don't remember feeling any pain until nearly an hour afterward. Minutes after the incident my teeth were chattering and I was shaking. I am of Scandinavian decent and many of my ancestors referred to this outburst as "berserkergang" my brother and grandfather also suffer from IED. My other IED outbursts are mostly mild, sometimes I shout, very rarely will I hit things, but when I'm faced with violence I completely snap. Now I am often paranoid to go to social events like these, because I fear I might be harmed or harm others. Anyone in here deal with this disorder and have any advice on it?

[Travelinglady]

No responses, so either no one has or the right people haven't seen this post. Have you seen a doctor about it?