These keep getting lumped together in my mind. I will start off thinking about the abuse I went through.....so much of it then I end up feeling strong mistrust, paranoia, sleep problems yes even with the meds I'm on, feeling so unworthy and damaged. Like I will always be alone bc I push ppl away.

So I called the on call therapist and she said I sounded manic, and I need to get stabalized, and then T and I can look at the traumas. It's so frustrating bc bp and ptsd seem to feed off each other for me.

It is so painful, once again feeling life is so unfair and why God, universe whatever? Bp stands for bipolar.

Any insight would be appreciated.

[faerie_moon_x]

What it sounds like to me is that your PTSD is a trigger for your bipolar. So you've got a double trigger situation going on. Whatever triggers your PTSD and then the PTSD triggers the BP.

Have you ever done a mood tracker? Optimism Online is fully customizable so you can set up to track your PTSD triggers and your bipolar triggers.

Am I the only one that has both or something? The co-occurr often I heard....I must be wrong.

[ultramar]

Hi Passionskyy,

I actually suffer from both as well. On one occasion it did trigger an episode of mania, but which also continued to have a flavor of PTSD, if that makes any sense. It's so complicated.

A series of reminders converged in a short period of time which led to an enormous amount of anxiety (and some suspiciousness, as with you), which led to no sleep, which led to the rest. I'm actually making it sound like a neat straight line, but I suppose it was more complicated than that.

So I agree with Dark Heart, it's possible that it is triggering your Bipolar Disorder. But I think just recognizing that this may be the case is half the battle. As they can affect each other, I think keeping the one relatively under control can help with the other.

Definitely something to talk to your therapist about. I'm sorry your're going through such a hard time.

ultramar

Originally Posted by ultramar

Hi Passionskyy,

I actually suffer from both as well. On one occasion it did trigger an episode of mania, but which also continued to have a flavor of PTSD, if that makes any sense. It's so complicated.

A series of reminders converged in a short period of time which led to an enormous amount of anxiety (and some suspiciousness, as with you), which led to no sleep, which led to the rest. I'm actually making it sound like a neat straight line, but I suppose it was more complicated than that.

So I agree with Dark Heart, it's possible that it is triggering your Bipolar Disorder. But I think just recognizing that this may be the case is half the battle. As they can affect each other, I think keeping the one relatively under control can help with the other.

Definitely something to talk to your therapist about. I'm sorry your're going through such a hard time.

ultramar

Yeah right now I'm going to just focus on getting stable. That takes a lot of stress off. I'm trying distracting and I took a nap which helped. Thx for the info.

My son and I r gonna spend some quality time together. I need to think about his needs too.

Yes, PassionSkyy, helping someone else always seems somehow to be helpful for
ourselves. Good idea to give some quality time to your son.

Take care.