Bipolar Depression

Hello everyone. Hope all of your days are going well. I am new to bipolar disorder and had been diagnosed with it since my manic/ psychosis episode at Christmas time. I can remember experiencing a high like never before and it was great. I felt like I was king of my domain during my manic phase. Since they injected me with a bunch of medicine and brought me down/ back to reality I haven't been the same.

I feel like what I am now experiencing is bipolar depression. I am taking anti-psychotic meds that are suppose to balance me out. Does anyone know if I can still have bipolar depression while on meds? My self-esteem and confidence are low, memory is bad, I'm not talkative, and I don't enjoy things I use to. I feel handicapped. I have the symptoms of bipolar depression. This is my first time being in it, has anyone come out and felt better again/ back to their old self? If so how long does this usually last? Will I gain my ability to speak and concentrate again? Will my memory come back and be better? I feel hopeless and lost and I'm looking for someone who can relate. Thanks to everyone who responded to my first post.

I'm sorry you're going through it. I'm having some depression now too. All the meds I've tried never really fixed things, but sometimes they helped temporarily for me. For me, I have to really feel the feelings, I cry a lot maybe that's a good way to process for me. You could try different meds... Yes I have come out of very dark depressions and been highly functional again. I think it will happen for you too. No idea how long it lasts, so individual and many factors. Keep talking it out if you can

It will pass always remember that and yes you can be depressed on meds. Hang in there.

Clinte89 I like your quote from Henry Ford. BlueInanna I hope your depression gets better. It's good to know that I can and will come out of it. Just a matter of time. Thanks for the help

Terrible experience. I had a similar one. Force medicated for over a month with Risperidone and Lithium. I gained over 30lbs in less than 3 months. The weight gain did not help with the severe depression and lack of motivation I felt. Getting out of bed was incredibly hard. I tapered off over a period of 6 months b/c Lith and Risperidone are highly addictive despite what the "experts" say. I did it gradually, reducing Lithium by 150 each month. I was taking 1200mg. The first 5 days you will feel awful, but it takes 10 days for your brain and body to adjust to lowered dose. Stay strong. This will pass.