[faerie_moon_x]

I just had a HUGE epiphany right this second.

I always wonder what made my big psychotic episode stop. I don't even remember it stopping or when, I just know it stopped sometime around the time after I divorced my ex or when my middle son was born, so 7-8 years ago.

So.... suddenly it hit me. After I had my middle son the residant psych came and talked to me. She ended up putting me on abilify which I took for 2 weeks, but my OB took me off of it due to the horrible side effects. I never got any actual follow-up, just a support group for people who were angry.

What if... what if...

What if 2 weeks of abilify knocked that delusion down, and since I lived over 900 miles away from the trigger and the triggering people were out of my life... what if it just boxed it up on my head. Since I didn't have anything to trigger me thinking about it, and all the other stress going on at that time, my brain put it away, only for me to remember it years later.

I am so curious if maybe this could have been why it stopped. I have no idea... what do you think?

[Cherish505]

Hello dark_heart, Triggers were a big problem for me. The friends were not my best choices, my divorce, annulment, my home, which haunted me. I took my son and we moved miles away..we have a beautiful apartment, and decided to make our own new memories. It is amazing the change in me. I felt in control of my life. My doctor was pleased and sent me off to find volunteer work..Triggers..get rid of as many as possible.

Originally Posted by dark_heart_x

I just had a HUGE epiphany right this second.

Originally Posted by dark_heart_x

I always wonder what made my big psychotic episode stop. I don't even remember it stopping or when, I just know it stopped sometime around the time after I divorced my ex or when my middle son was born, so 7-8 years ago.

So.... suddenly it hit me. After I had my middle son the residant psych came and talked to me. She ended up putting me on abilify which I took for 2 weeks, but my OB took me off of it due to the horrible side effects. I never got any actual follow-up, just a support group for people who were angry.

What if... what if...

What if 2 weeks of abilify knocked that delusion down, and since I lived over 900 miles away from the trigger and the triggering people were out of my life... what if it just boxed it up on my head. Since I didn't have anything to trigger me thinking about it, and all the other stress going on at that time, my brain put it away, only for me to remember it years later.

I am so curious if maybe this could have been why it stopped. I have no idea... what do you think?

[BlueInanna]

Maybe so cuz Abilify is an anit-psychotic right? I don't know enough about Abilify except the bad side effects I had with it. But also, if you'd just given birth, think of all the chemicals released with that process? Brain chemicals that relieve pain and also make you not remember a lot of the childbirth pain, maybe something in there helped set something right, helped bring balance. Then there is also the spiritual help (I saw angels with my 3rd) that comes with a baby being born.... Off on tangents, this really got me thinking.

[faerie_moon_x]

Yeah, abilify is an anti-psychotic. I didn't even know it when I first started it. I thought it was an AD, LOL. At that time I thought I just had depression. Well, when I was having the bad side effects I looked it up and it said it was an anti-psychotic. I was shocked. And it said not to use if breastfeeding, which I was trying (not producing much milk though.) I freaked out because I told the pdoc I wanted to breastfeed and she said it would be okay. Middle son is fine, of course, but that's not fun to discover online.

I don't know about the giving birth part, because I had my middle son by c-section. My oldest son I had him naturally with no meds at all, and I know I was still believing it when he was a baby. I was only 23 when I had him and 26 when I had middle son.

Well, it just kind of hit me.... I will probably never know what happened exactly. But, it's a theory, I guess.

[BlueInanna]

Yea could be the short pop of Abilify. They advertise it as an AD, or an "add-on" for depression. I've seen some really bad tv commercials for it.