Update

I'm back!

I've been on a 2 month hiatus. Its been a long journey. I was accepted into a program in Erie, PA called Fairweather Lodge. It's a group home initially. I spent the last 2 months in the training lodge where of course we didn't have access to internet. I had Tapatalk on my Android so I was able to read the forums but it was too difficult to respond to threads. While I was at the training lodge my meds were adjusted, some were added like Topamax, Neurontin and Wellbutrin. Upped my Seroquel to 600mg.

As of yesterday 05/13/13 I have moved into a permanent lodge with another housemate from the training lodge. We have internet and directv. The apartment is fully furnished which is nice. I'm still in Erie, PA and I love this little city. I'm a transplant, but I plan on making this my permanent home, something I haven't been able to say for years. i have a peer specialist that i see 2-3 times per week and she and I talk about current issues, and she teaches me about healthy ways of living, its the best way to explain it. I have been slowly removing the cancerous people from my life and adding positive ones. Overall things are going good. I'm feeling better. I can honestly say, I haven't felt this good in atleast 5 years, maybe even 10.

Welcome back! Lodge sounds cozy awesome. Directv and internet after going without must be a welcome treat. Very glad to hear how well you're doing Chandler, very good job

YEA! Good to see you and to hear that it's going so well, Chandler! That is such very excellent news!

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Mr. Robot

Makes me sick to the heart, Oh I feel so tired. And the way the rain comes down hard, that's how I feel inside.

--The Cure