[comicgeek007]

I feel weak for telling my parents what was going on -they didn't even get the full story- and having to take my.meds again. So all this withdrawal bs is down the drain. Great. Now I have to look forward to it next time instead of getting it over with now. FML...

[ultramar]

So all this withdrawal bs is down the drain

I don't understand what this means, can you explain?

[unlived]

Originally Posted by ultramar

So all this withdrawal bs is down the drain

I don't understand what this means, can you explain?

Think she means she went through it for nothing?

[comicgeek007]

Originally Posted by unlived

Think she means she went through it for nothing?

yep. And you got my gender right as well.

[winter4me]

Originally Posted by comicgeek007

I feel weak for telling my parents what was going on -they didn't even get the full story- and having to take my.meds again. So all this withdrawal bs is down the drain. Great. Now I have to look forward to it next time instead of getting it over with now. FML...

This is not weakness, although I have felt the same in the past.
This is strength. Right now, if you can focus on now and what you are able to do to gain confidence and productivity. Put the med issue aside for a while instead of looking at it like that mountain you are approaching and don't know if you can climb. Let it be. Build other skills,
meds are not all bad------------no more smallpox, diabetics can live much healthier and longer, some cancers are cured...the mind and body are not two different entities. ----if you can let go and accept it for a time (say six months, a year) and do other work you will begin to feel stronger.
Please realize how strong you Are just to be dealing with life each day. No joke.

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by winter4me

This is not weakness, although I have felt the same in the past.
This is strength. Right now, if you can focus on now and what you are able to do to gain confidence and productivity. Put the med issue aside for a while instead of looking at it like that mountain you are approaching and don't know if you can climb. Let it be. Build other skills,
meds are not all bad------------no more smallpox, diabetics can live much healthier and longer, some cancers are cured...the mind and body are not two different entities. ----if you can let go and accept it for a time (say six months, a year) and do other work you will begin to feel stronger.
Please realize how strong you Are just to be dealing with life each day. No joke.

I agree with this 100%. I couldn't have said it better.

If the meds help you, then it isn't weakness to use them. Think of them as a tool to get you through this hard time, and worry about what the next step will be wtih them later. Hang in there, CG!

[comicgeek007]

Thanks, guys.

I'm pretty sure now that the Abilify is working, no so sure about the Zoloft. I never had mania before I started it.

[ultramar]

Originally Posted by comicgeek007

yep. And you got my gender right as well.

What was the purpose of stopping taking your meds that has now been thwarted? At different times you've said that you've forgotten to take them, at other times you intentionally don't take them, and once that you wanted your father -through you not taking them- to see that you're not making this up. So I'm confused, though I imagine you are too and that's not a nice place to be.

I hope you feel better soon and see the pdoc to get the meds straightened out.

[comicgeek007]

Originally Posted by ultramar

What was the purpose of stopping taking your meds that has now been thwarted? At different times you've said that you've forgotten to take them, at other times you intentionally don't take them, and once that you wanted your father -through you not taking them- to see that you're not making this up. So I'm confused, though I imagine you are too and that's not a nice place to be.

I hope you feel better soon and see the pdoc to get the meds straightened out.

All of the above, plus me not liking to be dependant on unnatural stuff just to function. It makes me feel just a step above a crack head. But at the same time at least one of them helps, as much as i hate to admit it.

So yeah, I am confused and torn.

[redbandit]

I understand how you might feel "weak" bcuz u have to take meds. But ur not, mosy ppl have some sort of health problem, whether or not they r medicated. Its important to know ur meds wont help if u dont take them regularly, though. Usually they take a little while to see improvements. Glad to hear ur abilify is helping. I took Zoloft when i was first dxd (or mis-dxd) with depression. It got me a little more stable, but it didnt help a whole lot.
Good luck!